And he had Benthall's assurance that the girl cared for him--that was
something. Benthall was a man careful in the extreme as to what he
said, and he would not have made such a statement where a girl was
concerned, and that girl his own sister-in-law, unless he was
tolerably certain of being right. His own sister-in-law; he had it
then, of course, from Gertrude, who was Maude's second self, and would
know all about it. It was satisfactory to know that there was a woman
in the world who cared for him, and though without the smallest
particle of vanity he accepted the belief very readily, for his
rejection by Marian Ashurst and the indignity which he had suffered at
her hands had by no means rendered him generally cynical or suspicious
of the sex. Marian Ashurst! what an age ago it seemed since the days
when the mention of that name would have sent the blood flowing in his
cheek, and his heart thumping audibly, and now here he was staying in
the old house where all the love scenes had taken place, walking round
the garden where all the soft words had been spoken, all the vows made
which she had thrown to the winds when the last parting, with what he
then and for so long afterwards thought its never-to-be-forgotten
agony, had occurred, and he had not felt one single extra
palpitation. Mrs. Creswell was staying away from Woolgreaves just
then, at some inland watering-place, for the benefit of her health,
which it was said had suffered somewhat from her constant attendance
on her husband, or Joyce might have met her. Such a meeting would not
have caused him an emotion. When he had encountered her in the lane,
during the canvassing time, there was yet lingering within his breast
a remembrance of the great wrong she had done him, and that was fanned
into additional fury by the nature of her request and the insolence
with which she made it. But all those feelings had died out now, and
were he then, he thought, to come across Marian Creswell's path, she
would be to him as the merest stranger, and no more.
If he were to marry, he knew of no one more likely to suit him in all
ways than Maude. Pretty to look at, clever to talk to, sufficiently
accustomed to him and his ways of life, she would make him a far
better wife than nine-tenths of the young ladies he was accustomed to
meet in such little society as he could spare the time to cultivate.
Why should he marry at all? He answered the question almost as soon as
he asked it. His life wanted brightening, wanted refining, was at
present too narrow and confined; all his hopes, thoughts, and
aspirations were centred on himself. He was all wrong. There should be
some one who--the chambers were confoundedly dreary too, when he came
home to them from the office or the House; he should travel somewhere
abroad when the House rose, he thought, and it would be dull work
moving about by himself, and--
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