"It is very good of you to let me come down here, breaking in upon the
rest which I have no doubt you want, and boring you with my own
private affairs," said Joyce, seating himself in the window-sill close
by the armchair which Lady Caroline had taken.
"It is not very good of you to talk conventionalities, and to pretend
that you don't know I have a deep interest in all that concerns you,"
replied Lady Caroline.
"I have every reason to know it, and my last words were merely a
foolish utterance of society talk----"
"Which you always declare to despise, and which you know I detest."
"Quite true; think it unspoken and absolve me."
"I do; but if we are to have what you used to call a 'business talk,'
we must have it at once. In half an hour Lord and Lady Hetherington
and the luncheon will arrive simultaneously, and our chance is at
an end. And you did not come from London, I suppose, to discuss
tenant-right, or to listen to Lady Hetherington's diatribes against
servants?"
"No, indeed; with all deference to them, I came to see you, and you
alone, to ask your advice, and to take it, which is quite a different
thing, as I have done before in momentous periods of my life."
"And this is a momentous period?"
"Undoubtedly--as much, if not more so, than any."
Had she any notion of what was coming? Her pale face grew paler; she
pushed back the rippling tresses of her chestnut hair, and her large
eyes were fixed on him in grave attention.
"You alone of any one in the world, man or woman, know the exact story
of my first love. You knew my confidence and trust, you knew how they
were abused. You saw how I suffered at the time, and you cannot be
ignorant of what is absolute fact; that to your advice and
encouragement I owe not merely recovery from that wretched state, but
the position to which I have since attained!"
"Well?"
"That first love fell dead--you know when! Ambition, the passion that
supplied its place, was sufficient for a time to absorb all my
thoughts, hopes, and energies. But, to a certain extent it has been
gratified, and it suffices me no longer. My heart wants some one to
love, and turns to one to whom it owes gratitude, but whom it would
sooner meet with a warmer feeling. Are you not well, Lady Caroline?"
"Quite well, thanks, and--and interested. Pray go on!"
"To go on is difficult. It is so horrible in a man to have to say that
he sees he has awakened interest in a woman, that she shows all
unknowingly to herself, but still sufficiently palpable, that he is
the one person in the world to her, that she rejoices in his presence,
and grieves at his absence; worst of all, that all, this is pointed
out to him by other people----"
Lady Caroline's cheeks flushed as she echoed the words, "Pointed out
to him by other people!"
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