clays, she talks as if it were a necessary of life.' Perhaps--and I
think they may be sufficiently genuinely sweet girls to make it
possible--the look may have meant that they were glad to think they
had it in their power to give her anything she enjoyed so much. I like
it very much, too; there is more pleasure in driving about leisurely
in a carriage which you have not to pay for than I imagined; but I
should be sorry the girls knew I cared very much about it. I have not
very much respect for their intellects, and silly heads are apt to
take airs at the mere idea of being in a position to patronise.
Decidedly the best room in the house is mamma's, and she likes it so
much. I often see the thought in her face, 'If we could have given him
all these comforts, we might have had him with us now.' And so we
might, Walter, so we might. Just think of the great age some of the
very rich and grand folks live to; I am sure I have seen it in the
papers hundreds of times, seventy, eighty, ninety sometimes, just
because they _are_ rich; rank has nothing to do with it beyond
implying wealth, and if my father had been even a moderately rich man,
if he had been anything but a poor man, he would have been alive
to-day. We must try to be rich, my dearest Walter, and if that is
impossible (and I fear it, I fear it much since I have been here, and
Mr. Creswell has told me a good deal about how he made his money, and
from all he says it seems indispensable to have _some_ to begin with,
there is truth in the saying that _money makes money_)--if that is
impossible, at least we must not think of marrying while we are poor.
I don't think anything can compensate to one's self for being poor,
and I am quite sure nothing can compensate for seeing any one whom one
loves exposed to the privations and the humiliations of poverty. I
have thought so much of this, dearest Walter, I have been so doubtful
whether you think of it seriously enough. It seems absurd for a woman
to say to a man that she ponders the exigencies of life more wisely,
and sees its truths more fully than he does; but I sometimes think
women do so, and in _our_ case I think I estimate the trial and the
struggle there is before us more according to their real weight and
severity than you do, Walter, for you think of me only, whereas I
think of you more than of myself, and as _one_ with myself. I have
learned, since I came here, that to understand what poverty really
means one must see the details of wealth. We have only a general idea
of a fine house and grounds, a luxurious table and a lot of servants.
The general idea seems very grand and attractive, but when one sees it
all in working order, when one can find out the cost of each
department, the price of every article, the scale on which it is all
kept up, not for show, but _for every-day use_, then the real meaning
of wealth, the awful difficulty of attaining it, realise themselves to
one's mind. The Creswell girls know nothing about the mechanism of
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