Some few minutes passed before Marian felt sufficiently recovered to
move. The attack had been so unexpected and so brutal that she would
have been perfectly paralysed by it even if the words which the boy
had used had been the outpourings of mere random savagery, instead
of, as they evidently were, the result of premeditated and planned
insult--insult grounded on hate, and hate springing from fear.
Marian's quick intelligence made that plain to her in a moment. The
boy feared her, feared that she might obtain an ascendancy over
his father, and get the old gentleman to advance money to Mrs.
Ashurst--money that ought not to go out of the family, and should be
his at his father's death--or perhaps fancied she was scheming to
quarter herself at Woolgreaves, and---- Good heavens, could he have
thought that! Why, the idea had never crossed her mind. She dismissed
it at once, not without a half smile at the notion of the retribution
she could inflict, at the thought that the boy had suggested to her
what might be such a punishment for himself as she had never dreamed
of.
She walked on quickly, communing with herself. So they had found her
out, had they? Tom's blurted warning was the first intimation she had
had that what she knew to be the guiding purpose of her life, the
worship of, love for, intended acquisition of money, was suspected by
any, known to any one else. No syllable on the subject, either
jestingly or reproachfully, had ever been breathed to her before. It
was not likely that she would have heard of it. Her father had
considered her to be perfect; her mother had set down all her small
economies, scrapings, and hoardings which were practised in the
household to Marian's "wonderful management;" and however the feminine
portion of the Whicher and Croke families might talk among themselves,
their respect for the schoolmaster and their dread of Marian's powers
of retort always effectually prevented them from dropping any hints at
the schoolhouse. So Marian heard it now for the first time. Yet there
was nothing in it to be ashamed of, she thought; if her poor father
had been guided by this sentiment his life might have been perhaps
preserved, and certainly an immense amount of misery would have been
spared to them all. Love of money, a desire to acquire wealth,--who
should reproach her for that? Not Mr. Creswell, of whose good opinion
she seemed to think first, for had not his whole life been passed in
the practice, and was not his present position the result, the example
to which she could point in defence of her creed? Not Maude or
Gertrude Creswell, who if they had possessed the smallest spark of
independence would have been earning their bread as companions or
governesses. Not the people of the village, who---- Yes, by Tom's
account they did talk of her; but what then? What the people in the
village thought or said about her had never been of the smallest
interest to Marian Ashurst when she lived among them, and was brought
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