Black, Jack, 1871-1932; Criminals -- Canada -- Biography; Criminals -- United States -- Biography
The storekeepers said “there was nothing in the safe anyway.” My friend,
the waiter, who stood by when it was opened, said they hurried to the
bank with a fat package and “what was in it was plenty.”
This failure took the heart out of me for a few days, and I don’t know
what depths of despondency I might have wallowed in but for my friend.
He suggested, with the best intentions I am sure, that I take a job
washing dishes in the place where he worked. This was a jolt to my
pride. Of course I had nothing against dishwashers or dishwashing. I saw
that any able-bodied dishwasher would have more to show for his ten
years’ hard work than I had for mine, and if I had been in the notion of
going to work I would have taken that kind of job as quick as any. But
the thought of working was as foreign to me as the thought of burglary
or robbery would be to a settled printer or plumber after ten years at
his trade. I wasn’t lazy or indolent; I knew there were lots of easier
and safer ways of making a living, but they were the ways of other
people, people I didn’t know or understand, and didn’t want to. I didn’t
call them suckers or saps because they were different and worked for a
living. They represented society. Society represented law, order,
discipline, punishment. Society was a machine geared to grind me to
pieces. Society was an enemy. There was a high wall between me and
society; a wall reared by myself, maybe—I wasn’t sure. Anyway I wasn’t
going to crawl over the wall and join the enemy just because I had taken
a few jolts of hard luck.
I did go over the wall in the end and take my hat off to society and
admit I was wrong, but I didn’t do it because of discouragement, because
I was afraid of the future, because of the police. I didn’t do it
because I realized I was wrong; I knew I was wrong years before. I did
it because—but that’s a separate story, to be told later, in its place.
So, instead of following the waiter’s advice, I busied myself with a few
careful hotel burglaries, got a small bankroll together again, bought
some presentable clothes, and kept looking around for a decent piece of
money. The booming mining town had its share of gamblers, women of the
night, thieves, and hop fiends—nearly all of them renegades or fugitives
from the “American side.” Their leisure time was given to drinking or
smoking hop. I had weaned myself from gambling. I was naturally a light
drinker. So it fell out that, in this town of no amusements, the hop
joint claimed me.
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