You no longer count (Tu n'es plus rien!)Boylesve, René
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You no longer count (Tu n'es plus rien!)
Boylesve, René
World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
"You succeed in pleasing them! This man who visits us, with whom you
took lunch, is always asking for you. He never so much as speaks of me.
And yet it is I who permit him to come!"
"A man who cannot see you in your place at the head of the table, and to
whom you never give any proof that you are there, may naturally forget
you."
"You find it all right because he doesn't forget you. He dotes upon you,
by what George says; he asks for news of you, he longs to hear your
voice! He annoys me. In fact, child, it was precisely on your account,
I admit, that I was obliged to turn him away; he was falling in love
with you. Can you imagine it? You ought to thank me!"
"In love with me! If that were true I should be all the more sorry for
him, poor man! But he must have heard about me? He knows that I am not
to be had?"
"He hasn't gone as far as that; he only feels happy in your company.
When you are not there he misses you. That is all."
"Well, where is the love in that? He is like the wounded men whom I have
nursed; they were happy in my company; when I went away, I suppose they
missed me. If I had concluded from that that they were in love with
me----"
"You didn't conclude it, on your part, but as for them, what do you
know? Perhaps you broke their hearts!"
"You are romantic and think only of love! Men who have suffered as they
have, prefer to think of their own comfort, and of those who make them
comfortable. I knew a nurse seventy years old for whom her patients
clamored like children. Were they in love with her?"
"That proves nothing. A blind man feels very clearly whether the woman
near him is one who charms."
"Then he ought also to feel the compassion that he inspires, and that
does not lead to love."
"Are you uncomfortable in the presence of a blind man?"
"It is an undefinable emotion; my head turns. I lose my self-command."
"You didn't seem to, here."
"One does almost involuntarily the thing that costs the most, if one is
determined to comfort those whose misfortunes arouse your emotions."
And they talked of other things.
XXXIV
Odette would no doubt have forgotten "her" blind man if a visit which
Mme. de Blauve paid her had not recalled him to mind in the most
unexpected manner.
Mme. de Blauve, whose calmness had always impressed every one, from the
time when she was living under the bombardment of Rheims through the
days in which she had made the sacrifice of her husband, her two sons,
and, one may say, her daughter, now appeared unnerved. She had grown
thin; her eyes were sunken; she was evidently suffering.
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