When he first addressed her as mother, ’Lizabeth had started with a
little cry. What might be the reason that made this mode of expression
unusual it was impossible to say; but it affected the old woman as
nothing had yet done. She looked up at him with a wondering, wistful
inquiry in her face, as if to ask in what meaning he used the
word--kindly or unkindly, taunting or loving? When he repeated the name
she started up as if the sound stung her, and stood for a moment like
one driven half out of herself by force of pressure. She looked wildly
round her as if looking for some escape, then suddenly seized the
lighted candle, which still burned on the table. “Then if it must be,
let it be,” she said. “Oh, lad! it’s years and years since I’ve heard
that name! you that would not, and him that could not, and her that was
far away; was there ever a mother as sore punished?” But it would seem
that this expression of feeling exhausted the more generous impulse, for
she set down the light on the table again, and dropping into her seat,
threw her apron over her head. “No, I canna do it; I canna do it. Let
him die in quiet. It canna be long.”
The vagrant watched her with a keen scrutiny quite unlike his usual
careless ways. “It’s not them as are a burden on the earth that dies,”
he said. “You’ve said that long--let him die in peace; let him die in
peace. Am I wishing him harm? There’s ne’er a one will hurt _him_. He’s
safe enough. Whoever suffers, it will not be him.”
“Oh, lad, lad!” cried the mother, uncovering her face to look at him. At
’Lizabeth’s age there are no floods of tears possible. Her eyes were
drawn together and full of moisture--that was all, She looked at him
with a passion of reproach and pain. “Did you say suffer? What’s a’ the
troubles that have been into this house to his affliction? My son, my
son, my miserable lad! You that can come and go as you like, that have a
mind free, that have your light heart--oh ay, you have a light heart,
or how could you waste your days and your nights among beasts and wild
things? How can the like of you judge the like of him?”
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