And he was much provoked and annoyed when a week later there was still
no progress made, and it became apparent that no such easy solution of
all difficulties as he had expected was to be looked for. The Squire was
in much the same state on the next Saturday and the next, and it was
apparent that the illness was to be a lingering and tedious one--the
kind of thing which wears out everybody round. When people are going to
die, what a pity that they should not do it speedily, relieving both
themselves and others! But nature, so often acting in a manner contrary
to all prognostications, was not to be hurried. To jog her gently on,
and relieve the sufferer authoritatively from his troubles, is not yet
permissible in England. On the contrary, medical science acts just the
other way, with questionable mercy, prolonging lives in which there is
nothing but suffering, and stimulating the worn-out machinery of the
frame to go on a little longer, to suffer a little more, with all that
wheezing and creaking of the rusty wheels which bears witness to the
unnaturalness of the process. This was what Randolph felt with much
restrained warmth of annoyance. It was unnatural; it was almost impious.
Two doctors, a professional nurse, and Mary, who was as good, all
labouring by every possible invention to keep mere life in their
patient. Was it right to do so? Providence had evidently willed to
release the old man, but science was forcing him to remain imprisoned in
the flesh. It was very hard upon the Squire, and upon Randolph too,
especially as the latter could not venture to express his real
sentiments on this matter, but was compelled to be glad of every little
sign of tenacity and vitality which the patient gave. If it had been
recovery indeed, he said to himself, there might have been some reason
for satisfaction; but as it was only holding by life, mere existing and
nothing more, what ground was there for thankfulness? It would be better
for the sufferer himself, better for everybody, that it should be over
soon. After this state of things had lasted for a fortnight, Randolph
could not bear it any longer. He sent for Mary from the sick room, and
gave her to understand that he must go.
“Had I expected he would last so long,” he said, “I should have gone
last week. Of course it does not matter for you who have nothing else to
do; but my work and my time are of importance. If anything were likely
to happen directly, of course I should think it my duty to stay; but, so
far as I can see, nothing is likely to happen,” said Randolph in an
aggrieved tone. Mary was too sad to laugh and too languid to be angry,
but there came a gleam of mingled resentment and amusement into her
eyes.
“It is not for us to wish that anything should happen,” she said.
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