Nello came to himself at last, after giving Mrs. Swan a great deal of
trouble; and there was nothing for it but to leave him in bed all day;
for the child was bruised with the fall, aching in every limb, and too
resentful and wretched to make any effort. He lay and cried and brooded,
what between childish plans of vengeance and equally childish projects
of escape. Oh, the pangs of impotence with which the small boy wronged
contemplated the idea of those big fellows who had been so cruel to him!
How should weakness be aware that strength does not intend to be cruel?
Nello could not be tolerant, or understanding, at his age, even if there
had not been his aching bones to prove the wickedness of his assailants.
He hated them all. How could he help hating them? He lay and planned
what he would do to them. But Nello’s dreams were not malicious. At the
last moment, when they had suffered torments of dread in prospect of the
punishment which he permitted them (in his fancy) to see approaching,
Nello’s vengeance suddenly turned into magnanimous contempt. He would
not condescend to reprisals; he would crush them with forgiveness as
soon as they saw his power. Such were the plans which the child lay and
concocted, and which amused him, though he was not aware of it. But when
the boys came in Nello shrank to the farther side of his bed; he would
not look at them; he would not listen to the rough inquiries. When they
went away again, however, and he was left alone, a sudden fit of longing
came over him. Oh, to see somebody he knew!--somebody that was kind!
Schemes of vengeance pall, like every other amusement. He gazed round
upon the bare walls, the range of beds, the strange, ugly, desolate
place. He could not tell if it was worse when the savages were there,
filling it with noise, stumblings of heavy feet, cries of rough voices,
or when the sounds all died away, and he was left lonely, not a soul to
speak to him; no kind hand to touch his hot little head; nobody to give
him a drink, though he wanted it so much. Nello had to clamber out of
bed, to pour himself out a cup of water from the great brown jug, which
he could scarcely lift--and fell upon his bed again, utterly heartsick
and desolate. Nobody to give him a drink! How they used to pet him when
he had a headache! How Martuccia would croon over him, and bathe his
head, and kiss his hands, and bring him everything she could think of
to please him! And Mary would come and stand by his side, and put her
cool, white hand upon his head--that hand which he had once called “as
soft as snow.” Nello remembered the smile that came on Mary’s face when
he had called her hand “as soft as snow.” He did not himself see the
poetry of the phrase, but he thought he could feel again that mingled
coolness, and softness, and whiteness. And Lily! Lily would sit by him
all day long, and read to him, or sing to him, or tell him stories, or
play when he got a little better and could play. A great lump came in
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