The experimental life does not put one at the mercy of chance. It is
rather the rational mind that is constantly being shocked and deranged
by circumstances. But the dice of the experimenter are always loaded.
For he does not go into an enterprise, spiritual or material, relying
simply on his reason and will to pull him through. He asks himself
beforehand whether something good is not sure to come whichever way
the dice fall, or at least whether he can bear the event of failure,
whether his spirit can stand it if the experiment ends in humiliation
and barrenness. It is surprising how many seeming disasters one finds
one can bear in this anticipatory look; the tension of the failure is
relieved, anyhow. By looking ahead, one has insured one’s self up to
the limit of the venture, and one cannot lose. But to the man with the
carefully planned campaign, every step is crucial. If all does not turn
out exactly as he intends, he is ruined. He thinks he insures himself
by the excellence of his designs and the craftiness of his skill. But
he insures himself by the strange method of putting all his eggs in one
basket. He thinks, of course, he has arranged his plans so that, if
they fall, the universe falls with them. But when the basket breaks,
and the universe does not fall, his ruin is complete.
Ambition and the rational ideal seem to be only disastrous; if
unsuccessful, they produce misanthropists; if successful, beings that
prey upon their fellow men. Too much rationality makes a man mercenary
and calculating. He has too much at stake in everything he does to
know that calm disinterestedness of spirit which is the mark of the
experimental attitude towards life. Our attitude towards our personal
affairs, material and spiritual, should be like the interest we take
in sports and games. The sporting interest is one secret of a healthy
attitude towards life. The detached enthusiasm it creates is a real
ingredient of happiness. The trouble with the rational man is that
he has bet on the game. If his side wins, there is a personal reward
for him; if it loses, he himself suffers a loss. He cannot know the
true sporting interest which is unaffected by considerations of the
end, and views the game as the thing, and not the outcome. To the
experimental attitude, failure means nothing beyond a shade of regret
or chagrin. Whether we win or lose, something has been learned, some
insight and appreciation of the workings of others or of ourselves. We
are ready and eager to begin another game; defeat has not dampened our
enthusiasm. But if the man who has made the wager loses, he has lost,
too, all heart for playing. Or, if he does try again, it is not for
interest in the game, but with a redoubled intensity of self-interest
to win back what he has lost. With the sporting interest, one looks on
one’s relations with others, on one’s little rôle in the world, in the
same spirit that we look on a political contest, where we are immensely
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