For at the bottom of all the difficulties of a man like me is really
the fact that his self-respect is so slow in growing up. Accustomed
from childhood to being discounted, his self-respect is not naturally
very strong, and it would require pretty constant success in a
congenial line of work really to confirm it. If he could only more
easily separate the factors that are due to his physical disability
from those that are due to his weak will and character, he might
more quickly attain self-respect, for he would realize what he is
responsible for, and what he is not. But at the beginning he rarely
makes allowances for himself; he is his own severest judge. He longs
for a “strong will,” and yet the experience of having his efforts
promptly nipped off at the beginning is the last thing on earth to
produce that will.
If the handicapped youth is brought into harsh and direct touch with
the real world, life proves a much more complex thing to him than to
the ordinary man. Many of his inherited platitudes vanish at the first
touch. Life appears to him as a grim struggle, where ability does not
necessarily mean opportunity and success, nor piety sympathy, and where
helplessness cannot count on assistance and kindly interest. Human
affairs seem to be running on a wholly irrational plan, and success
to be founded on chance as much as on anything. But if he can stand
the first shock of disillusionment, he may find himself enormously
interested in discovering how they actually do run, and he will want
to burrow into the motives of men, and find the reasons for the crass
inequalities and injustices of the world he sees around him. He has
practically to construct anew a world of his own, and explain a great
many things to himself that the ordinary person never dreams of finding
unintelligible at all. He will be filled with a profound sympathy
for all who are despised and ignored in the world. When he has been
through the neglect and struggles of a handicapped and ill-favored man
himself, he will begin to understand the feelings of all the horde of
the unpresentable and the unemployable, the incompetent and the ugly,
the queer and crotchety people who make up so large a proportion of
human folk.
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