“Rejoice, then!--thou hast overcome the true terror and mystery of the
ordeal. Resolve is the first success. Rejoice, for the exorcism is sure!
Thou art not of those who, denying a life to come, are the victims of
the Inexorable Horror. Oh, when shall men learn, at last, that if the
Great Religion inculcates so rigidly the necessity of FAITH, it is not
alone that FAITH leads to the world to be; but that without faith there
is no excellence in this,--faith in something wiser, happier, diviner,
than we see on earth!--the artist calls it the Ideal,--the priest,
Faith. The Ideal and Faith are one and the same. Return, O wanderer,
return! Feel what beauty and holiness dwell in the Customary and the
Old. Back to thy gateway glide, thou Horror! and calm, on the childlike
heart, smile again, O azure Heaven, with thy night and thy morning star
but as one, though under its double name of Memory and Hope!”
As he thus spoke, Zanoni laid his hand gently on the burning temples of
his excited and wondering listener; and presently a sort of trance came
over him: he imagined that he was returned to the home of his infancy;
that he was in the small chamber where, over his early slumbers,
his mother had watched and prayed. There it was,--visible, palpable,
solitary, unaltered. In the recess, the homely bed; on the walls, the
shelves filled with holy books; the very easel on which he had first
sought to call the ideal to the canvas, dust-covered, broken, in the
corner. Below the window lay the old churchyard: he saw it green in the
distance, the sun glancing through the yew-trees; he saw the tomb where
father and mother lay united, and the spire pointing up to heaven, the
symbol of the hopes of those who consigned the ashes to the dust; in
his ear rang the bells, pealing, as on a Sabbath day. Far fled all
the visions of anxiety and awe that had haunted and convulsed; youth,
boyhood, childhood came back to him with innocent desires and hopes; he
thought he fell upon his knees to pray. He woke,--he woke in
delicious tears, he felt that the Phantom was fled forever. He looked
round,--Zanoni was gone. On the table lay these lines, the ink yet
wet:--
“I will find ways and means for thy escape. At nightfall, as the clock
strikes nine, a boat shall wait thee on the river before this house;
the boatman will guide thee to a retreat where thou mayst rest in safety
till the Reign of Terror, which nears its close, be past. Think no more
of the sensual love that lured, and wellnigh lost thee. It betrayed, and
would have destroyed. Thou wilt regain thy land in safety,--long years
yet spared to thee to muse over the past, and to redeem it. For thy
future, be thy dream thy guide, and thy tears thy baptism.”
The Englishman obeyed the injunctions of the letter, and found their
truth.
CHAPTER 7.X.
Quid mirare meas tot in uno corpore formas?
Propert.
(Why wonder that I have so many forms in a single body?)
Zanoni to Mejnour.
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