"As I rarely mean anything. Let me be candid for once, since we
converse in the nursery, and say that I respect Lionel and I respect
you."
"I would rather have love," suggested the girl, timidly.
Leah touched her breast with eight finger-tips. "From----" Then in
response to an answering blush: "My dear, I love no one but myself."
"I can't believe that, or you would not have bothered to bring me to
Paris."
"Merely the desire for a new sensation. I assure you, as Lionel
assured me, that all my virtues spring from the Ego."
"What is the Ego?"
"Leah Kaimes in this instance."
"I don't think you are selfish," persisted Joan; "if you really and
truly were, you would not say so."
"Oh, but I should; that is my refined form of self-love. When I cry
aloud my imperfections, I receive some such compliment as you have
paid. Then little god Ego, sitting within my breast, sniffs up the
incense."
"In that case I am selfish, too. I like to be told nice things."
"And to be given nice things, such as---- Well, I expect Lionel, in
spite of clerical propriety, can explain better than I, and," added
Lady Jim, mischievously, "in dumb show. My dear, your Ego is shaped
like a good young padre; you are merged in Lionel--swallowed up, as
some one's rod swallowed up some one else's. I suppose now"--Leah
nursed her knees with clasped hands--"I suppose when you marry St.
Sebastian, you will be wildly happy in a dull country rectory, wearing
twice-turned gowns and last year's hats, and fussing after old women
and grubby village urchins, with your husband's sermons for relaxation
when penny readings pall."
"Quite happy," assented Joan, laughing at the over-coloured
picture--"with Lionel, of course."
"As I say: your Ego is his Ego. Dear!" and Lady Jim dropped two
impulsive kisses on her companion's cheeks. Joan wondered at this
uninvited display of affection, and wondered still more when Leah
turned away with a somewhat bitter laugh. Perhaps, had she guessed the
truth, her sympathy would have extended to this woman, whom self-love
isolated from humanity.