"Awful. I can scarcely believe it. Is it really true?" and she had a
passing hope that it might not be, seeing she could not benefit.
"Only too true, unfortunately."
"For those two, I suppose you mean. You're all right."
"A square peg in a round hole, I fear," he sighed. "I would give much
that both had survived."
"How unnatural!" commented Lady Jim, with a grimace. "But you always
were eccentric. People won't mind that, now you are a duke. But I am
sorry--really--for them, I mean. Such an awful thing to be cut off
before you've made your arrangements for an agreeable reception in the
next world. What a mercy they went together--for company, you know;
and they say drowning is really quite nice after the first choking is
over."
Lionel looked at her sternly, but felt helpless. She played with the
solemn issues of life and death as a child with a bauble. Would
nothing touch her heart? Would nothing make her serious? The flippancy
jarred on his overstrung nerves. "Please do not talk like that," said
he, harshly and emphatically. "Please do not."
"I am only trying to cheer you up," she answered, opening her eyes
wide, and with a faint smile softening her hard mouth. "I really
cried--you mustn't think me hard-hearted; really, I cried when I heard
of the accident. I suppose it was an accident?"
"I should call it the act of God."
"Oh!" Leah could find no very pertinent reply, and glided dexterously
into another subject, to prevent religious instruction. "I came down
to see poor Hilda, as she wanted me so badly. But I thought it best to
learn details from you first. We must spare the poor thing's feelings,
you know, Lionel," ended Lady Jim, thoughtfully.
His face brightened. "I am glad you call me that," said he, earnestly,
"for I confess it is difficult for me to respond to my title."
"You'll get used to it," she assured him. "I suppose you will drop the
parson now?"
"Certainly not. I am still my Master's servant. He has merely raised
me to a higher and more responsible position in His household."
"Raised your wages also," murmured Leah, shrugging. "I beg your
pardon, Lionel, I should not have said that."
"You should not, indeed," was the pained response.
"It's a kind of hysteria," apologised Lady Jim, almost at a loss for
an excuse, "like that man who botanised on his mother's grave, you
know. Besides, people who really feel, laugh awfully when sorrow
comes. And Jim's death took most of my tears--poor dear Jim! I daresay
you think that I am unfeeling; but I'm not--really and truly, I'm not.
What with these dear things dying so unexpectedly, and my own feeling
of widowhood, and condolences from people who will say the wrong
thing, I feel broken-hearted."
Lionel smiled grimly at this incoherent and wholly false explanation.
"You have a strange way of showing grief, Lady James."