"Oh! dear me, that is exactly the exasperating sort of thing your
father would have said. He was a good man also--the kind of man I most
particularly hate. Never mind, I'll make everything plain to you. I've
held my tongue long enough. Now I am going to speak out, and take back
to my hungry heart the baby girl I loved."
"Did you really love me?" asked Beatrice doubtfully.
"Yes--really I did. You were all that I had to love, as my husband--the
first one, your father--was a kind of stone image with no feelings
and no affections. I loved you fondly, and wanted to be your dearest
mother--which I certainly am--but that Durban and that horrid Alpenny
were too strong for me. No, it wasn't Alpenny. I don't think he wanted
to bring you up; but Durban insisted, and I gave way."
"Why did you?"
"There were reasons," said Lady Watson evasively, and a spot of red
burned on either cheek.
"They must have been strong reasons to make a mother surrender her
child to the care of strangers."
"Durban wasn't a stranger. He was in the house when you were born; and
really you might have been his own child, from the fuss he made over
you. But Colonel Hall--your father, my dear--saved Durban from being
lynched in America, and Durban always pretended that he loved him
dearly."
"I am sure Durban did," insisted Beatrice. "He is not a man who says
one thing and does another."
"That is just what he does do," cried Lady Watson, fanning herself with
a flimsy handkerchief all lace and scent. "Look at the way he has kept
you in the dark all these years. And I am quite sure that he has told
you heaps and heaps of lies! These niggers never can tell the truth."
"Durban told me as little as he could," confessed Beatrice; "but he
never told me a deliberate lie, I am sure. But if you are my mother,
who is the woman who is buried as you?"
"Not as me--the idea!" protested Lady Watson; "as Alpenny's wife--and
a nice bargain she got in that old scoundrel! She was Amelia Hedge,
and called herself Mrs. Hedge when she married Alpenny, to account
for you. It wasn't my fault. I'm sure I always liked to have you with
me, Beatrice, as you were such a pretty child, and it looks well to
have one's children about one, nowadays. But Durban would insist that
I should give you up--and perhaps he was right after all," ended Lady
Watson candidly "as Sir Reginald--my second husband--would never have
married a widow with a child."
So the weak little woman babbled on, and Beatrice felt her heart sink
as she at last beheld her mother. To think that this frivolous and
weak creature should have given her birth! Then a thought came to her.
"Durban said that my mother was quiet and silent."