"To my wife I told the whole story, but she refused to believe me. I
confessed that I had remembered about Mrs. Veilsturm when it was too
late, but she accused me of knowing the truth from the first, and of
having wilfully acted as I had done. Nothing I could say could shake
her belief in this matter, and she swore she would never forgive me
for the insult I had placed upon her.
"What could I do? Nothing! except retire from the scene. In vain I
assured her of my complete innocence. She refused to believe my
statement, and drove me from her presence--from my home--with cruel
words. This woman, wrapped up in an armour of purity--of selfish
purity--could not credit my innocence in any way. She judged me from
the 'I-would-not-have-acted-thus' standpoint, and insisted that I had
betrayed her basely, although she had no further proof than the gossip
of the world.
"I left her. I came back to London to see Mrs. Veilsturm again. It is
wrong--I know it is wrong--but what am I to do? Live an isolated
existence, pass days and nights of abject misery, only to pander to
her self-righteous ideas? For eighteen months, in spite of all my
tenderness and love, she has wilfully neglected me, she has refused to
acknowledge that I have been a good husband, she has rendered my life
miserable, and now she has driven me forth from my own home on account
of a sin--if it can be called so--of which I am guiltless.
"What am I to do? Live the life of a hermit in order to right myself
in her eyes and be called back and pardoned, as if I were indeed
guilty? No! I will not do so. It is her fault, not mine, that I am
placed in such a miserable position. Unable to win her by tenderness,
by love, I will henceforth live my own life and see what neglect will
do. For every pang she has inflicted upon me I will inflict a pang
upon her, for her months of neglect I will repay her in full, for her
coldness I will give coldness in my turn, and to any remonstrances she
may offer I will say then what I say now--'It is your work.'"
So far the cases of husband and wife, each arguing from their own
point of view. Now which of them is right, the man or the woman? The
husband who strove to win his wife's love, or the wife who refused to
give the husband that love which was his due.
Errington was now acting wrongly, as he himself knew; he was
voluntarily flinging himself into the arms of a woman whom he knew to
be worthless, but who can say he had no provocation? He had done his
best to win his wife's love, he had suffered in silence during the
period of his married life, and in return she had shamefully neglected
him, and had finally, with hardly any proof, accused him of
voluntarily making a friend of a worthless woman. Outraged by this
treatment, the husband left her presence, and she had driven him into
the very jaws of destruction.