But soon a face began to dawn before me, elusive at first, and then
gradually gaining in definition. At last the picture flashed upon my
mental vision with sudden vividness, and it has never left me to this
day. Its steadfastness convinced me of its accuracy. It was so real
that I could see its expression vary, as she spoke, according to her
mood. The plainness, almost ugliness, of the face repelled me. I
thought ruefully of having dreamed of kisses from the lips that barely
closed in front of the great white teeth. Yet, after a while, its
higher qualities exercised a peculiar attraction. A brave, tender
spirit shone through. An intellectual alertness redeemed the heavy
features--the low ugly brow, the coarse nose, the large mouth; and as I
lay thinking and picturing there was revealed in an illuminating flash
the secret of the harmony between face and voice. Thenceforward
Valerie Deane was invested with a beauty all her own. I loved the dear
plain face as I loved the beautiful voice, and the touch of her
fingers, and the tender, laughing womanliness, and all that went with
the concept of Valerie Deane.
Had I possessed the daring of Young Lochinvar, I should, on several
occasions, have declared my passion. But by temperament I am a
diffident procrastinator. I habitually lose golden moments as some
people habitually lose umbrellas. Alas! There is no Lost Property
Office for golden moments!
Still I vow, although nothing definite was said, that when the
unanticipated end drew near, our intercourse was arrant love-making.
All pain had gone from my eyes. I was up and dressed and permitted to
grope my way about the blackness. To-morrow I was to have my first
brief glimpse of things for three weeks, in the darkened room. I was
in high spirits. Valerie, paying her morning visit, seemed depressed.
"But think of it!" I cried in pardonable egotism. "To-morrow I shall
be able to see you. I've longed for it as much as for the sight of the
blue sky."
"There isn't any blue sky," said Valerie. "It's an inverted tureen
that has held pea-soup."
Her voice had all the melancholy notes of the woodwind in the unseen
shepherd's lament in "Tristan und Isolde."
"I don't know how to tell you," she exclaimed tragically, after a
pause. "I shan't be here to-morrow. It's a bitter disappointment. My
aunt in Wales is dying. I have been telegraphed for, and I must go."
She sat on the end of the couch where I was lounging, and took my hands.
"It isn't my fault."
My spirits fell headlong.
"I would just as soon keep blind," said I blankly.
"I thought you would say that."
A tear dropped on my hand. I felt that it was brutal of her aunt to
make Valerie cry. Why could she not postpone her demise to a more
suitable opportunity? I murmured, however, a few decent words of
condolence.