I loathed "the others" with a horrible detestation; but I said, after
reflection:
"Tell me about yourself. I know you are called Valerie from Dr. Deane.
How old are you?"
She pinned the bandage in front of my forehead.
"Oh, I'm young enough," she answered with a laugh. "Three-and-twenty.
And I'm five-foot-four, and I haven't a bad figure. But I haven't any
good looks at all, at all."
"Tell me," said I impatiently, "exactly how you do look. I must know."
"I have a sallow complexion. Not very good skin. And a low forehead."
"An excellent thing," said I.
"But my eyebrows and hair run in straight parallel lines, so it isn't,"
she retorted. "It is very ugly. I have thin black hair."
"Let me feel."
"Certainly not. And my eyes are a sort of watery china blue and much
too small. And my nose isn't a bad nose altogether, but it's fleshy.
One of those nondescript, unaristocratic noses that always looks as if
it has got a cold. My mouth is large--I am looking at myself in the
glass--my my teeth are white. Yes, they are nice and white. But they
are large and protrude--you know the French caricature of an
Englishwoman's teeth. Really, now I consider the question, I am the
image of the English _mees_ in a French comic paper."
"I don't believe it," I declared.
"It is true. I know I have a pretty voice--but that is all. It
deceives blind people. They think I must be pretty too, and when they
see me--_bon soir, la compagnie_! And I've such a thin, miserable
face, coming to the chin in a point, like a kite. There! Have you a
clear idea of me now?"
"No," said I, "for I believe you are wilfully misrepresenting yourself.
Besides, beauty does not depend upon features regular in themselves,
but the way those features are put together."
"Oh, mine are arranged in an amiable sort of way. I don't look cross."
"You must look sweetness itself," said I.
She sighed and said meditatively:
"It is a great misfortune for a girl to be so desperately plain. The
consciousness of it comes upon her like a cold shower-bath when she is
out with other girls. Now there is my cousin----"
"Which cousin?"
"My Uncle Henry's daughter. Shall I tell you about her?"
"I am not in the least interested in your cousin," I replied.
She laughed, and the entrance of the nurse put an end to the
conversation.
Now I must make a confession. I was grievously disappointed. Her
detailed description of herself as a sallow, ill-featured young woman
awoke me with a shock from my dreams of a radiant goddess. It arrested
my infatuation in mid-course. My dismay was painful. I began to pity
her for being so unattractive. For the next day or two even her
beautiful voice failed in its seduction.