For a while he did not answer. He bit his lower lip, showing just a
fine line of white teeth. Memory again clutched her. She was also
struck by his unconscious realization of the aging quality of the war
in that he spoke of his Nineteen-thirteen self as "a young fool." So
far as that went, they thought in common.
Presently he said,
"Your voice reminds me of some one I used to know."
"Where?"
"Oh, here, in London."
She lied instinctively, with a laugh.
"It couldn't have been me. I've only just come to London--and I've
never met Major Shileto before in my life."
"Of course not," he asserted readily. "But I had no idea two human
voices could be so nearly identical."
"Still," she remarked, "you haven't told me of the temperature of a
hundred and three."
"Oh, it is no story. Your voice brought it all back. You've heard of
a man's own angry pride being cap and bells for a fool? Well"--he
laughed apologetically--"it's idiotic. There's no point in it. I just
went about for a week in a Canadian winter with that
temperature--that's all."
"Because you couldn't bear to lie alone and think?"
"That's about it."
"Sister!" cried the boy, Robin McKay, from the next bed.
She obeyed the summons. What was the matter?
"Everything seems to have got mixed up, and my knee's hurting like
fury."
She attended to his crumpled bedclothes, cracked a little joke which
made him laugh. Then the two other men claimed her notice. She
carried on her work outwardly calm, smiling, self-reliant, the
perfectly trained woman of the war. But her heart was beating in an
unaccustomed way.
Her ministrations over, she left the ward for duty elsewhere.
At tea-time she returned, and aided the blindfolded man to get through
the meal. The dread of the morning had given place to mingled
mind-racking wonder and timidity. He had gone off, on the hot speed of
their last quarrel, out of her life. Save for a short, anguished
period, during which she had lost self-control, she had never
reproached him. She had asserted her freedom. He had asserted his.
Nay; more--he had held the door open for a way out from an impossible
situation, and she had slammed the door in his face. Self-centered in
those days, centered since the beginning of the war in human suffering,
she had thought little of the man's feelings. He had gone away and
forgotten, or done his best to forget, an ugly memory. Her last
night's review of ghosts had proved the non-existence of any illusions
among them. But now, now that the chances of war had brought them
again together, the sound of her voice had conjured up in him, too, the
ghosts of the past. She had been responsible for his going-about with
a temperature of a hundred and three, and for his not caring what
happened to him. He had lifted the corner of a curtain, revealing the
possibility of undreamed-of happenings.
"You were quoting Tennyson just now," she remarked.
"Was I?"
"Your cap-and-bells speech."
"Oh, yes. What about it?"