Camille (La Dame aux Camilias) — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Camille (La Dame aux Camilias)
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“Then, besides that,” continued Prudence; “admit that Marguerite loves
you enough to give up the count or the duke, in case one of them were
to discover your liaison and to tell her to choose between him and you,
the sacrifice that she would make for you would be enormous, you can
not deny it. What equal sacrifice could you make for her, on your part,
and when you had got tired of her, what could you do to make up for
what you had taken from her? Nothing. You would have cut her off from
the world in which her fortune and her future were to be found; she
would have given you her best years, and she would be forgotten. Either
you would be an ordinary man, and, casting her past in her teeth, you
would leave her, telling her that you were only doing like her other
lovers, and you would abandon her to certain misery; or you would be an
honest man, and, feeling bound to keep her by you, you would bring
inevitable trouble upon yourself, for a liaison which is excusable in a
young man, is no longer excusable in a man of middle age. It becomes an
obstacle to every thing; it allows neither family nor ambition, man’s
second and last loves. Believe me, then, my friend, take things for
what they are worth, and do not give a kept woman the right to call
herself your creditor, no matter in what.”
It was well argued, with a logic of which I should have thought
Prudence incapable. I had nothing to reply, except that she was right;
I took her hand and thanked her for her counsels.
“Come, come,” said she, “put these foolish theories to flight, and
laugh over them. Life is pleasant, my dear fellow; it all depends on
the colour of the glass through which one sees it. Ask your friend
Gaston; there’s a man who seems to me to understand love as I
understand it. All that you need think of, unless you are quite a fool,
is that close by there is a beautiful girl who is waiting impatiently
for the man who is with her to go, thinking of you, keeping the whole
night for you, and who loves you, I am certain. Now, come to the window
with me, and let us watch for the count to go; he won’t be long in
leaving the coast clear.”
Prudence opened the window, and we leaned side by side over the
balcony. She watched the few passers, I reflected. All that she had
said buzzed in my head, and I could not help feeling that she was
right; but the genuine love which I had for Marguerite had some
difficulty in accommodating itself to such a belief. I sighed from time
to time, at which Prudence turned, and shrugged her shoulders like a
physician who has given up his patient.
“How one realizes the shortness of life,” I said to myself, “by the
rapidity of sensations! I have only known Marguerite for two days, she
has only been my mistress since yesterday, and she has already so
completely absorbed my thoughts, my heart, and my life that the visit
of the Comte de G. is a misfortune for me.”