She went down the road with a bale of art muslin over her shoulder and
carrying a small bronze table-lamp with a pink silk shade. The bright
bunchy green heads of the little lopped acacia trees bobbed against
their background of red brick villa as she walked ... little moving
green lampshades for Harriett’s life; they were like Harriett; like her
delicate laughter and absurdity. The sounds of the footsteps of
passers-by made her rejoice more keenly in her burdens. She felt herself
a procession of sacred emblems, in the sunshine. The sunshine streamed
about her from an immense height of blue sky. The sky had never been so
high as it was above Harriett’s green acacias. It had gone soaring up
to-day for them all; their sky.
* * * * *
That eldest Wheeler girl, going off to India, to marry a divorced man.
Julia seemed to think it did not matter if she were happy. How could she
be happy?... Coming home from the “Second Mrs. Tanqueray” Bennett had
asked Sarah if she would have married a man with a past ... it was not
only that his studies had kept him straight. It was himself ... and
Gerald too. It was ... there were two kinds of men. You could tell them
at a glance. Life was clean and fresh for Sarah and Harriett.... There
were two kinds of people. Most of the people who were going about ought
to be shut up, somehow, in prison.
4
Eve came into the little room with her arms full of Japanese anemones.
Behind her came a tall man with red-brown hair, a stout fresh face and
beautifully cut clothes. Miriam bowed him a greeting without waiting for
introduction and went on arranging her festoons of art muslin about the
white wooden mantelpiece. He was carrying a trayful of little fluted
green glasses each half filled with water. He came into the room on a
holiday--a little interval in his man’s life--delighted to be arranging
the tray of glasses; half contemptuous and very happy. Pleased and
surprised at himself and ready for miracles. He was not married--but he
was a marrying man--a ladies’ man--a man of the world--something like
Bob Greville--with the same sort of attitude towards women.... “The
vagaries of the Fair” ... a special manner for women and a clubby life
of his own, with men. Women meant sex to him, the reproduction of the
species my dear chap, and his comforts and a little music on Sunday
afternoon. He loved his mother, that was certain, Miriam felt, from
something in his voice, and respected all mothers; the sort of man who
would “look after” a woman properly, but would never know anything about
her. And there was something in himself that he knew nothing about. Some
woman would live with him in loneliness, maddened, waiting for that
something to speak. Secretly he would be half contemptuous, half afraid
of her and would keep on always with that mocking, obsequious,
patronising manner. Horrible--and so easy to deceive, and yet cruel to
deceive. _Hit_ him ...