At first his own conduct had seemed inexplicable to him. Everything
had been going well, he had been just about to be free from the
whole entanglement, when an impulse of primitive jealousy and
fierce masculine egotism had suddenly brought him to New York and
bound him hand and foot. It had not been an agreeable prospect--to
live among people whose standards he did not understand, with
a woman whom he did not love. But, since his conversation with
Hickson, his eyes were opened, and he saw the situation in far more
tragic colors.
He _did_ love her. He did not believe in her or trust her; he
had no illusions as to her feeling for him, but his for her was
clear--he loved her, loved her with that strange mingling of
passion and hatred so often found and so rarely admitted.
He could imagine a man’s learning, even under the most suspicious
circumstances, to conquer jealousy of a woman who loved him. Or
he could imagine having confidence in a woman who did not pretend
love. But to be married to a woman whom you love, without a shred
of belief either in her principles or her affection, seemed to
Riatt about as terrible a prospect as could be offered to a human
being.
There was just one chance for him--that Christine might be willing
to release him. If she really loved Linburne, if there had been
some sort of understanding between them in the past, if his coming
had only precipitated a lovers’ quarrel, then certainly Christine
had too much intelligence to let such a chance slip through her
fingers just on the eve of Linburne’s divorce. Nor was she, he
thought bitterly, too proud to stoop to ask a man to reconsider;
nor did it seem likely, however deeply Linburne’s vanity had been
wounded, that he would refuse to listen.
With this in mind, as soon as he reached his hotel, he sat down and
wrote her a letter:
“My dear Christine:
“What was it, according to your idea, that happened this
afternoon? I believed that for the first time I asked you
to marry me, and that you, for the first time definitely
accepted me. But as I think over your manner, I am led to
think you supposed it was just a continuation of our old
joke.
“Did you accept me, Christine? And if so, why? Why
commit yourself to a marriage without affection, at the
psychological moment when a man for whom you have always
cared is about to be free?
“If you still need me in the game, I am ready enough to be
of use, but I will not be bound to a relation unless you,
too, consider it irrevocably binding.
“Yours,
“M. R.”
He told the messenger to wait for an answer, but he thought that
Christine would hardly be willing to commit herself on such short
notice, or without an interview with Linburne.
But, within a surprisingly short interval, her letter was in his
impatient hands.
“Dear Max: