Loved you better than you knew — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Loved you better than you knew
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Frederick Foster was the son of Mrs. Varian’s eldest sister, long since
dead, and therefore peculiarly dear to her, so that wherever he went,
he always kept up a correspondence with Arthur, of whom he was very
fond. So it chanced that they had written him while he was abroad of
their sojourn at Newport, and begged him to join them there on his
return.
Later on the mother and son decided to meet him at the steamer, as he
might feel it a lonely home-coming, his father also being dead, and his
two married sisters being absent from the city.
From the pier they had recognized Frederick on the steamer’s deck,
but as he stood in front of his three companions, they had not been
identified, otherwise Arthur would have gone away to avoid a meeting.
It seemed to Mrs. Varian as if a most malignant fate had sent them
there when she lifted her eyes and saw before her Frederick, her
handsome nephew, arm in arm with Cinthia, while behind them walked
Everard Dawn with the beautiful Madame Ray.
It was a painful, almost a tragic _rencontre_, and entirely
unavoidable, for Frederick Foster, unconscious of anything wrong, cried
out almost boisterously:
“How do you do, my dear aunt? Happy to see you, Arthur!” embracing them
with effusion, and adding, to the pale, silent girl who clung to his
arm: “Miss Dawn, let me present my aunt, Mrs. Varian, and my cousin,
Arthur Varian.”
A moment of shocked embarrassment was followed by formal
greetings--greetings as of strangers who had never met before.
Mrs. Varian and Cinthia simply bowed to each other, both pale and cold,
but Arthur held out his hand, saying, almost inaudibly:
“I am glad to meet you.”
Cinthia bowed without speaking, and gave him her icy fingers in
response. Their hands just touched and fell apart, and their faces were
as pale as they would ever be in their coffins.
Frederick Foster, without observing anything unusual in the air,
proceeded to present the others.
“Mr. Dawn and Madame Ray, let me present my aunt and cousin, Mrs.
Varian and her son.”
Again there were cold, surprised bows on either side, and the next
moment Frederick found that Cinthia’s fingers had dropped from his arm,
and the heedless, jostling, happy throng had closed in between the two
little groups, cutting them off from each other.
“Oh, I say!” he cried, in dismay, “we have quite lost my friends. Will
you excuse me one moment while I follow and bid them good-bye?”
But Arthur answered in a troubled voice:
“My mother is almost fainting, Fred. Will you help me take her to the
carriage?”
It was quite true what Arthur said. Mrs. Varian’s proud, dark head had
drooped heavily against his shoulder, and her face was marble-pale,
with half-closed eyes, while her breath came in slow, labored gasps.
Somehow, the sight of Everard Dawn with the beautiful actress by his
side had given her an almost insupportable shock.