“Nonsense, Mildred!” I cried. “I have seen a hundred times as much of
society as you have, and I can say that the greatest boon in the way of
novelty would be a little bit of the independence and freshness so
natural to you. You are a woman to whom real things mean something. You
are earnest. You like to talk about earnest things, and why should you
feel obliged to condescend to the level of society small talk and
meaningless compliments?”
“Oh, I don’t propose to be a hypocrite,” said Mildred, with a little
amused laugh, at my unaccustomed vehemence in this line of thought. She
sat for a minute absently picking in pieces the Jacqueminot rose in her
corsage; then she said, “But you know, Ruby, there is such a thing as
being a doctrinaire and a dull dogmatist, and, on the other hand, being
full of tact and sympathy and wit, accomplishing the best results in an
indirect way, when no amount of direct preaching could do it. A woman of
character can make even her small talk a tremendous power if she only
knows how to go to work.
“I want to be a power, I honestly confess that, but I have little
worldly wisdom, and I have much to learn. I have lived in a world of
books and ideas, and now I am thrown into this perplexing, brilliant,
kaleidoscopic world of society, and I feel as unsophisticated as a girl
of sixteen.”
“But there is plenty of homage given you,” I remarked. “You were the
envy of every woman in the room the other night when Lord H—— took you
out to dinner.”
“Homage to _me_? Homage to my money, you ought to say,” replied Mildred,
with a touch of bitterness, as she shook the rose-leaves from her lap
into the waste-basket. “I wore opals and satin, and am, as the papers
say, a ‘great catch;’ but how much attention do you suppose my lord
would have paid me six months ago if he had met me running down Joy
Street with my bag of books, to take a Cambridge car?”
“But plenty of women are admired who are not rich,” I remarked; “it
doesn’t follow”—
“No,” said Mildred, breaking in impetuously; “but women are not admired
for their real worth. It always used to madden me to see how the nice,
sensible girls, who really had original ideas and could say something
worth saying, were always left to be the wall-flowers.
“Nine men out of ten actually like a little, helpless doll of a creature
who can talk by the hour and say nothing; and they don’t care for a
brave, self-helpful girl who has any independence of spirit, and who
does not flatter a man by demanding his attention and referring to his
opinion on every subject which requires more thought than crocheting or
tennis.