Drake replied in the affirmative, had a bath, and changed, and sat down
to one of the daintily prepared dinners which were the envy and despair
of his bachelor friends. It was really an admirable little dinner; the
claret was a famous one from the Anglemere cellars, and warmed to a
nicety; the coffee was perfection; Sparling's ministrations left nothing
to be desired; and yet Drake sank into his easy-chair after the meal
with a sigh that was weary and wistful.
There had never been anything more than soup and a plain joint, with a
pudding to follow, at the dinners at The Cottage; but the simple meal
had been rendered a pleasant one by Dick's cheerful and boyish nonsense;
and whenever Drake looked across the table, there had been Nell's sweet
face opposite him, sometimes grave with a pensive thoughtfulness, at
others all alight with merriment and innocent, girlish gayety.
His room to-night seemed very dull and lonely. It was strange; he had
never been bored by his own society before; he had rather liked to dine
alone, to smoke his cigarette with the evening paper across his knee or
a book on the table beside him. He tried to read; but the carefully
edited paper, with its brilliant articles, its catchy little paragraphs,
and its sparkling gossip, didn't interest him in the least. He dropped
it, and fell to wondering, to picturing, what they were doing at that
precise moment at The Cottage. Mrs. Lorton, no doubt, was sitting in her
high-backed chair reading the _Fashion Gazette_; Dick was lounging just
outside the window, smoking a cigarette, mending his rod, and whistling
the last comic song. And Nell--what was Nell doing? Perhaps she was
playing softly one of the pieces he had grown fond of; or leaning half
out of the window squabbling affectionately with the boy.
Or perhaps they were talking of him--Drake. Did they miss him? At the
thought, he was reminded of the absurd song--"Will They Miss Me When I'm
Gone?" And, with something like a blush for his sentimental weakness, as
he mentally termed it, he sprang up and took his letters. They consisted
mostly of bills and invitations. He chucked the first aside and glanced
at the others; both were distasteful to him. He felt as if he should
like to cut the world forever.
And yet that wouldn't do. Everybody would say that he was completely
knocked over by the ruin of his prospects, and that he had run away. He
couldn't stand that. He had always been accustomed to facing the music,
however unpleasant it might be; and he would face it now. Besides, it
would never do to sit there moping, and wishing himself back at Shorne
Mills; because that was just what he was doing.