Saul of Tarsus: A Tale of the Early Christians — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Saul of Tarsus: A Tale of the Early Christians
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Marsyas did not answer. Reaction had set up within him against the
foreign interest which had engaged his attention since sunrise. He had
thought of himself and had been concerned for Agrippa; he had planned
and had achieved ends. Entanglements straightened, immediate danger
passed, the cloud of his sorrow embraced him wholly. He did not want
to see that Canaan was beautiful, indeed a land of milk and honey. The
wind laden with spring sweets struck a chill in his soul; the singing
birds hurt him with a pain greater than he could endure. His heart was
bruised, his every sensation sore and weighted with a numb
consciousness that a dread thing had happened and that it was useless
to pray and hope now. The presence of others was an obstacle, vaguely
realized, that kept him from yielding to his desire to lie down on his
face and hate everything and give himself up to whatever chose to
befall him. Agrippa's hand, presently laid on his shoulder, irritated
him. He had to restrain himself to keep from shaking it off. But the
prince spoke, and his words were helpful.
"Marsyas, I know thy pain. I, too, had a beloved friend foully
murdered, and the agony of helplessness against the power that did him
to death sowed ashes on my heart. But the time of the Lord God, slow
as it approaches, fell at last. The only bitterness in my cup of
fierce triumph was that it was another, and not I, who accomplished, at
the end, the undoing of the murderer."
"The Lord God forfend any such misfortune from me!" was the bitter
rejoinder. "Vengeance can not be vengeance, if it fall from any hand
but mine!"
"Thou speakest truly: be thy requital sweeter than mine!"
It was good to find the reflection of his own hurt in another's
experience. It did not lessen his pain; but it gave him expression and
the assurance of sympathy. Agrippa continued in his pleasant voice.
"This persecution will cease ere long. It is only Jonathan's device to
make him noted as one zealous for the faith. He is much disliked. It
is reproach enough for a High Priest to be popular with the Sadducees:
it is well-nigh unforgivable to be set up by Rome; it is an
insurmountable obstacle to be other than eligible, Levitically; but
this man hath been wholly undone by these and an offensive personality.
Wherefore the people hate him with a fervor which Vitellius must
respect. But Jonathan fancies that if he can make him a name as a
defender of the faith, the rabble will applaud, and thou and I and
Vitellius and the discerning Jews will achieve no more against him than
flies whining about a wall! What folly! How oft we believe a thing to
be so, because we wish it to be so! Vitellius does not see how the
stoning of blasphemers indorses a man whom he dislikes. So Jonathan's
time is short and the persecution will cease with him. His minion will
be discountenanced with the master, and thine opportunity is made. Be
of hope; thy day is not distant."
But Marsyas' brow blackened.