Her feelings towards Morris were variable as the wind. At times the
memory of his brutal insults, his treachery and faithlessness, were
uppermost in her thoughts; then she felt for him only the most intense
and passionate hatred, bitterly grudging every hour of happiness to
which she had contributed in the past; praying wildly that the future
might hold for him agony of spirit equal to that into which he had so
ruthlessly plunged her. Then, again, a flood of her old devotion would
rise above all else. "Morris, Morris, come back to me! Oh, my darling,
my darling, how can I live without you?" was her sobbing appeal; but
there was none to answer.
For the most part she sorrowed in silence. She was aware that whispered
conversations were in progress outside her door, and more than once the
handle was turned cautiously. Later in the afternoon, Bianca, who was
genuinely attached to her beautiful young mistress, ventured to tap
again and again, at the same time imploring, in a tremulous voice, to be
allowed to do something--anything. But Evarne turned a deaf ear to all.
Time passed, and the first violence of her emotion burned itself out.
Then she became conscious that she felt sick and ill, and that her head
ached to distraction. Letting down her thick black hair, she threw
herself once again upon her tumbled bed, and made a first serious and
protracted effort to remain absolutely quiet and calm. Long she lay
there, staring at vacancy, sighing piteously at intervals, until as the
evening twilight crept into the room, the lids drooped over the wild
eyes and the exhausted girl sank into slumber.
When she awoke, it was night. The room was shrouded in darkness, and
perfect silence reigned. As recollection returned she despairingly
pressed her hands to her head, but firmly forbade any further lapse from
self-control. The determination she had arrived at during the weary time
she had lain passive before falling asleep was now to be put into
action. When the traitors who were beneath that roof awoke in the
morning, they should find their victim gone. She shrank from again
meeting either of the Belmonts; Morris it was better she should not see.
One of the trains that left Paris in the grey of the morning should bear
her away--far beyond the reach of these, her enemies.
Her thoughts turned towards London. She was not exactly a feminine Dick
Whittington; at the same time the great metropolis certainly seemed to
offer the greatest hope for one who had her own way to make.