Dare, talking a little apart with Pamela, gazed thoughtfully at the
quiet darkness of the garden and proposed walking in it. She hesitated
for the fraction of a second, and then complied. He noted the slight
hesitation, and felt glad that she conquered her reluctance. To have
refused his request would have seemed to suggest a want of confidence in
him. Nevertheless, some impulse, prompted by the recollection of that
slight hesitation, impelled him to turn before they got beyond view of
the others on the lighted stoep, and confine their walking to the limit
of the path in front of the house. He had not intended this at the
start; he longed for darkness and solitude. The murmur of voices, the
little disjointed scraps of conversation overheard as they passed and
repassed, disturbed him irritatingly; Arnott's frequently raised,
assertive tones sounded intrusive, broke upon the quiet of the garden
discordantly, reminding the two who walked in it of his presence with a
needlessly aggressive insistence.
Dare tried to ignore these things, but they jarred his nerves none the
less. He had not suspected until recently that he possessed any nerves;
but they had made many disquieting manifestations of their actuality of
late.
"I can't grow accustomed to the thought that you are leaving to-morrow,"
Pamela said to him presently. Her voice was low, and betrayed
unmistakable regret. The back of her hand brushed his lightly as they
paced the gravel slowly side by side. The contact gave him immense
satisfaction; he was grateful to her for not increasing the space
between them and thus denying him this small pleasure. "Of course I
knew you were only down for a short while; but your departure is a
little unexpected, isn't it?"
"I came for a week," he answered with a brief laugh. "It's been a long
one as days are reckoned, but time skips along when one is enjoying
oneself... It was sweet of you to say that, to allow me to think that
you will miss me a little. We have had some pleasant times together.
The worst of these things is there always has to be an end. I shall
miss you more than you will miss me."
"I wonder!" said Pamela.
He turned his head suddenly and looked her squarely in the eyes. The
light from the stoep shone on her face and showed it very fair and pale
and pure. She turned aside as though unwilling to bear his earnest
scrutiny.
"One grows used to people," she said. "Somehow, I have always felt at
home with you. When you go away I have a feeling that you won't come
back. I had that feeling last time."
"Yet here I am," he said in a lighter tone.
"Yes," she said. "I know. It's stupid of me. I hate losing sight of
friends. I have so few."
"Few!" he echoed. "I expect if I had half the number I should reckon
myself rich."
"You don't use the word in the sense I do," she returned. "I meant the
friends one can depend upon... who wouldn't fail one under any
circumstances."