"Fate is to blame for much; is it also to blame for the fact that you
sought her? Or did she seek you?"
"I sought her," I said; and, not seeing any better road to a proper
explanation of my conduct than the truth, I told him in a few words of
the notice I had seen posted upon the mill, and of how I had afterwards
surprised Rhoda Colwell there, and what the conclusions were which I
had thereby drawn; though, from some motive of delicacy I do not yet
understand, I refrained from saying any thing about her disguise, and
left him to infer that it was in her own proper person I had seen her.
He seemed to be both wonder-stricken and moved by the recital, and did
not rest till he had won from me the double fact that Rhoda Colwell
evidently knew much more than she revealed, while I, on the contrary,
knew much less. The latter discovery seemed to greatly gratify him, and
while his brow lost none of the look of heavy anxiety which had settled
upon it with the introduction of this woman's name into our colloquy, I
noticed that his voice was lighter, and that he surveyed me with less
distrust and possibly with less fear. His next words showed the
direction his thoughts were taking.
"You have shown an interest in my fate, Miss Sterling, in spite of the
many reasons you had for thinking it a degraded one, and for this I
thank you with all my heart. Will you prove your womanliness still
further by clinging to the belief which I have endeavored to force upon
you, that notwithstanding all you have heard and seen, I stand in no
wise amenable to the law, neither have I uttered, in your hearing at
least, aught but the truth in regard to this whole matter?"
"And you can swear this to me?" I uttered, joyfully.
"By my father's grave, if you desire it," he returned.
A flood of hope rushed through my heart. I was but a weak woman, and
his voice and look at that moment would have affected the coldest
nature.
"I am bound to believe you," I said; "though there is much I do not
understand--much which you ought to explain if you wish to disabuse my
mind of all doubt in your regard. I would be laying claim to a cynicism
I do not possess, if I did not trust your words just so far as you will
allow me. But----" And I must have assumed an air of severity, for I
saw his head droop lower and lower as I gazed at him and forbore to
finish my sentence.
"But you believe I am a villain," he stammered.
"I would fain believe you to be the best and noblest of men," I
answered, pointedly.
He lifted his head, and the flush of a new emotion swept over his face.
"Why did I not meet you two years ago?" he cried.
The tone was so bitter, the regret expressed so unutterable, I could
not help my heart sinking again with the weight of fresh doubt which it
brought.