My illness, though severe, was not of long continuance. In a week I was
able to be about my room; and in a fortnight I was allowed to read the
letters that had come to me. There were two, either of them calculated
to awaken dangerous emotions; and, taken together, making a draft on my
powers which my newly gained health found it hard to sustain. The one
was signed Rhoda Colwell, and the other Dwight Pollard. I read Rhoda
Colwell's first.
It opened without preamble:
I sought revenge and I have found it. Not in the way I anticipated,
perhaps, but still in a way good enough to satisfy both myself and the
spirit of justice. You will never trust Dwight Pollard again. You will
never come any nearer to him than you have to-day. You have an upright
soul, and whether you believe his declarations or not, can be safely
relied upon to hold yourself aloof from a man who could lend his
countenance to such a cowardly deed as I saw perpetrated in the old
cellar a month or so ago. Honor does not wed with dishonor, nor truth
with treachery. Constance Sterling may marry whom she may; it will
never be Dwight Pollard.
Convinced of this, I have decided to push my vengeance no further. Not
that I believe Mr. Barrows committed suicide, any more than I believe
that Dwight and Guy Pollard could be saved by any mere alibi, if I
chose to speak. Men like them can find ready tools to do their work,
and if they had been an hundred miles away instead of some six, I
should still think that the will which plunged Mr. Barrows into his
dreadful grave was the same which once before had made him taste the
horrors of his threatened doom. But public disgrace and execration are
not what I seek for my recreant lover. The inner anguish which no eye
can see is what I have been forced to endure and what he shall be made
to suffer. Guilty or not he can never escape that now; and it is a
future which I gloat upon and from which I would not have him escape,
no, not at the cost of his life, if that life were mine, and I could
shorten it at a stroke.
And yet since human nature is human nature, and good hearts as well as
bad yield sometimes to a fatal weakness, I would add that the facts
which I suppress are always facts, and that if I see in you or him any
forgetfulness of the gulf that separates you, I shall not think it too
late to speak, though months have been added to months, and years to
years, and I am no longer any thing but old
RHODA COLWELL.
Close upon these words I read these others:
MISS STERLING:--Pardon me that I presume to address you. Pardon the
folly, the weakness of a man who, having known you for less than a
week, finds the loss of your esteem the hardest of the many miseries he
is called upon to bear.