The Mysterious Mr. Miller — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mysterious Mr. Miller
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"Certainly--most certainly," answered Miller, in that breezy manner that
he had sometimes assumed towards me on our last meeting. He was
essentially a man of moods, sometimes brooding and strange, at others
full of buoyant good-humour, "You are always welcome here, remember.
Perhaps you'll dine with us--just pot-luck--at seven to-morrow night? I
don't expect you get much that's worth eating down at the `Lion'. We'll
induce Ella to stay over to-morrow, eh?"
My love protested that she would be compelled to return to Swanage in
the morning, but we would not hear of it.
Then Miller, with a delicacy which further showed that he had taken a
fancy to me, suggested that Ella might, perhaps, like to accompany me as
far as the lodge-gates, and a few moments later I went forth with my
love into the darkness.
For the first hundred paces, until we entered the black shadows of the
old beech hedge, we walked hand-in-hand, uttering no single word.
After that long interval of mourning and black despair, I was again at
her side--alone. I was beside myself for very joy.
We halted. It seemed an almost involuntary action. Then taking her
tenderly in my arms I pressed my lips to hers in a first long passionate
caress.
"My love!" I murmured, with heart overflowing, "my dearest love--you
for whom I have mourned, and whose dear memory I have ever revered--God
has given you back to me. We have met again--you have been given to me
from the grave, never to part--never--_never_!"
To my blank amazement she turned her pale white face from mine, without
reciprocating my passionate kisses. She sighed, and a shiver ran
through her slight frame. Her lips were cold, and with her hands she
pushed me from her with averted face.
"Ella!" I gasped, holding her, and looking into her fine eyes, though I
could see no expression there, so dark was it. "Ella! Darling, may I
not at least kiss you welcome on your return to me? Are you not mine--
my own?"
She made no response, only pushing me farther from her very firmly,
although I felt that her tiny hands trembled. She was overcome with
emotion, which she was in vain striving to suppress.
I held my breath--startled at her sudden and unaccountable change of
manner. My heart was bursting. What did it mean?
"Speak, dearest!" I implored. "Tell me the reason of this? Are you
not still my love? Are you not mine--as you were in the old days?"
Slowly she shook her head, and in a faltering voice, hoarse and low,
responded:--
"No, Godfrey! After to-night we must never again meet. Forgive me, but
I thought you had long ago forgotten me as utterly worthless."
"I have never forgotten, darling. You are my own dear Ella, as always.
Therefore we are now inseparable--we _shall_ meet again."
"Impossible!" she declared decisively in that same hard tone, her voice
so entirely changed. "I am no longer your love, Godfrey. I may as well
confess to you the bitter truth at once--_I am another's_!"
CHAPTER FIFTEEN.