The Stronger Influence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Stronger Influence
John Stuart Mill · en
The first real sorrow in Esme's life came to her with the realisation of
the fact that her influence with her husband no longer sufficed to keep
him steady. Gradually, so gradually that she did not suspect it until
the thing was plainly manifest, he fell back upon his former habit of
intemperance and became once more the drunkard whom she had first met at
the Zuurberg, and pitied and despised for the weakness of his character.
Hallam did not give in to his vice without a struggle; but with each
lapse his will weakened, till eventually he ceased to fight his enemy,
ceased even to consider the pain which he was aware he caused his wife.
Esme's grief was deep, and the humiliation of realising that the thing
was becoming publicly known added to her distress. Reluctantly she
withdrew from social intercourse and devoted her time entirely to him,
trusting that the power of love would yet prove the stronger influence.
Her love for him strengthened with her recognition of his need of her:
he was her child, weak and foolish and dependent,--her man and her
child, whom she had to protect from himself.
Matters grew worse. An inkling of the trouble reached Rose through an
acquaintance of her husband who had been in Cape Town and had heard
rumours of the state of affairs. Rose's first impulse was to write to
her sister and ask for information direct; but on reflection she decided
against this course. There flashed into her mind, as once before at the
time of Esme's marriage the same memory had disturbed her peace, the
picture of George Sinclair's face when he heard of Esme's engagement and
the recollection of his incomprehensible agitation. Was it possible
that he had known?
She determined to ask him; and on the first opportunity did so,
observing him attentively while she put a direct question to him. The
quick distress and the absence of surprise in his look confirmed her
suspicion. He had been aware of this thing all along.
"You knew!" she said resentfully. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"Good lord!" he exclaimed almost passionately. "It wasn't for me to say
anything. She knew what she was taking on. It wouldn't have made a
fraction of difference if you had done everything in your power to
dissuade her. She went into it with her eyes open."
"You mean that she realised she was marrying a drunkard?"
"Of course she realised it. I suppose she believed she could reclaim
him. For a time no doubt she did. Mrs Bainbridge, I could cheerfully
kill him, if that would help matters."
"It wouldn't," Rose answered practically. "Don't talk like a fool,
George."
"I love her," he said simply, the tears welling in his eyes. "I hate to
think of her life with him. It cuts me."