"We might meet" said Mr. Hancock, busily washing his hands and lifting
them in the air to shake back his coat sleeves. Miriam listened from her
corner behind the instrument cabinet, stupid with incredulity; he
_could_ not be speaking of the lecture ... he must be ... he had meant
all the time that he was going to be with her at the lecture.
"... in the library at half past eight."
"Oh yes" she replied casually.
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To sit hearing the very best in the intellectual life of London, the
very best science there was; the inner circle suddenly open ... the
curious quiet happy laughter that went through the world with the idea
of the breaking up of air and water and rays of light; the strange
_love_ that came suddenly to them all in the object lesson classes at
Banbury Park. That was to begin again ... but now not only books, not
the strange heavenly difficult success of showing the children the
things that had been found out; but the latest newest things from the
men themselves--there would be an audience and a happy man with a lit
face talking about things he had just found out. Even if one did not
understand there would be that. Fancy Mr. Hancock being a member and
always going and not talking about it ... at lunch. He must know an
enormous number of things besides the wonders of dentistry and pottery
and Japanese art.
It was education ... a liberal education. It made up for only being able
to say one was secretary to a dentist at a pound a week ... it sounded
strange at the end of twelve years of education and five months in
Germany and two teaching posts--to people who could not see how
wonderful it was from the inside; and the strange meaning and rightness
there was; there had been a meaning in Mr. Hancock from the beginning, a
sort of meaning in her privilege of associating with fine rare people,
so different to herself and yet coming one after another, like questions
into her life, and staying until she understood ... somebody struggled
all night with the angel ... I will not let thee go until thou bless me
... and there was some meaning--of course, meanings everywhere ...
perhaps a person inside a life could always feel meanings ... or perhaps
only those who had moved from one experience to another could get that
curious feeling of a real self that stayed the same through thing after
thing.
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