Three millions! : $b or, The way of the world — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Three millions! : $b or, The way of the world
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“It was not that. You did not take her by the hand, when we left; you
did not smile upon her. Your adieu to her was not different from that
to her mother. I watched her as you walked away. Her eye followed you,
and it seemed to me I could hear her reason speaking to her heart, and
saying that you did not love her, and that her heart must cease to
beat for you. I think now that she gave you up then. Very likely she
thought that, as you were now a _millionnaire_, she had no right to
cherish the affection she had fostered when you were both poor.”
“Perhaps she did,” said Eugene, musing; “but I did love her, and I
intended to assure her that I regarded her with deep interest.”
“Pray, what did you say to her?” demanded Dick, bluntly.
Eugene recalled the embarrassment under which he had labored on that
occasion; the difficulty he had experienced in attempting to say enough
without saying too much; and the fear which had haunted him lest he
should make her the wife of the three millions instead of himself.
He had firmly resolved not to permit himself to be influenced by the
contingent fortune, and this resolution had warped his judgment over
to the opposite extreme. He began to realize it now, under the sharp
tuition of his common-sense friend.
“I told her that we should always be friends,” he replied, in answer to
Dick’s blunt question.
“Did you, indeed?” And something like a sneer accompanied the words.
“I meant so.”
“It is quite possible you did. Are you sure you didn’t tell her you
could never be anything more than friends?”
“Of course, I did not. I didn’t mean that.”
“Miss Kingman would have been smarter than any lady I know of, if she
hadn’t believed that was what you meant. Did you tell her you were
going abroad?”
“I did.”
“Did you promise to write to her, or ask her to write you?”
“Not in so many words?”
“What did you say about it?”
“Well, I told her--I told her I should think of all my friends at home.”
“Excellent!”
“Of course I meant her.”
“And she, being gifted with the power to read your soul, even while
you were studiously attempting to hide it from her, readily understood
that all your friends at home meant herself! No, Hungerford, there was
no hole in that millstone. You cheated yourself, which is of no great
consequence; you cheated her, which, as the result shows, is a matter
of very great consequence both to you and to her.”
“Let us go to the island, and find out the facts,” said Eugene,
uneasily; for, as thousands of others have done when it was too late,
he regretted his excessive distrust, his overstrained prudence.