“Go on--go on; tell me all you have to say; it’s
quite--quite--funny--yes, funny,” she said, and there was something
of bewilderment in her voice. “I never--never--heard anything so--so
queer--so straightforward. Go on.”
“I have really said all that I came to say--maybe a trifle more,” he
said. “I’m not going to make an ass of myself leading you to fancy that
I’m coming here as a casual acquaintance having no designs in my heart
against you--I mean, for you. I don’t want you to fancy that I’m coming
here to talk to you about books, or pictures, for the sake of exchanging
opinions in a strictly platonic way. No, I want you to know from the
outset that I’m coming as a possible lover.”
“I understand--oh, quite clearly--you have made the position quite clear
to me; only let me tell you at once, Lord Lullworth that--that----”
“Now there you go treating me as disdainfully as if I had actually
declared myself to be your lover. I’m nothing of the sort, let me tell
you. I’m only the rough material out of which a lover may be formed. I’m
a possible lover, so I should be treated very gently--just the way that
you would treat a baby feeling that it may one day grow up to be a man.
At the same time nothing may really come of the business. Cupid, the god
of love is always shown as a child, because the people who started the
idea had before them the statistics of infant mortality; so many little
Loves die when they are young and never grow up at all.”
“They do--they do. Isn’t it a blessing? You have only seen me twice and
yet you----”
“My dear Miss Severn, I’ve seen you very often. I have been looking at
you for the past eighteen months, and I thought you the nicest girl
I had ever seen. I found out who you were, and it was I who got old
Shirley to get up his dinner to give me a chance of meeting you; and I
found you nicer even than I allowed myself to hope you would be. So I’m
coming to see you very often on the chance that something may come of
it. If after a while--a year or so--you find me a bit of a bore, you
just tell me to clear off, and I’ll clear without a back word. Now you
know just what my idea is. I’m not a lover yet but I may grow up to be
a lover. You may tell Lady Severn all this--and your father too, if you
think it worth while--if you think anything will come of the business.”
“I won’t trouble either of them. It’s not worth while.”
“I dare say you are right--only... Well, you are forewarned anyway.
Good-bye.”
“Good-bye,” said she. “This is the second time I have seen you in my
life. I don’t care how soon you come again, but if you never do come
again I promise you that my pillow will not be wet with bitter tears of
disappointment.”
“Same here,” he cried briskly, when he was at the door. He laughed and
went out and closed the door. In a moment, however, he opened the door,
and took a step towards her.