Eloisa : $b or, A series of original letters — Jean-Jacques Rousseau — John Shaqi
Eloisa : $b or, A series of original letters
Jean-Jacques Rousseau · en
My attachment to my dear friend grows every day stronger; your absence
becomes insupportable, and I have no relief but in my pen. Thus my
love keeps pace with yours; for I judge of your passion by your real
fear of offending: your former fears were only feigned, with an intent
to advance your cause. It is an easy matter to distinguish the
dictates of an afflicted heart from the phrenzy of a heated
imagination, and I see a thousand times more affection in your present
constraint than in your former delirium. I know also that your
situation, confined as it is, is not entirely bereft of pleasure. A
sincere lover must be very happy in making frequent sacrifices to a
grateful mistress, when he is assured that not one of them will be
forgotten, but that she will treasure the remembrance in her heart.
But who knows whether, presuming on my sensibility, this may not be a
deeper, and therefore a more dangerous plot than the former? O, no!
the supposition was unjust; you certainly cannot mean to deceive me.
And yet prudence tells me to be more suspicious of compassion than
even of love; for I find myself more affected by your respect than by
all your transport: so that, as you are grown more honest, you are
become in proportion more formidable.
In the overflowing of my heart I will tell you a truth, of which your
own feelings cannot fail to convince you: it is, that in spite of
fortune, parents, and of ourselves, our fates are united for ever, and
we can be only happy or miserable together. Our souls, if I may use
the expression, touch in all points, and we feel an entire coherence:
correct me if I speak unphilosophically. Our destiny may part us, but
cannot disunite us. Henceforward our pains and pleasures must be
mutual; and, like the magnets, of which I have heard you speak, that
have the same motion though in different places, we should have the
same sensations at the two extremities of the world.
Banish, therefore, the vain hope, if you ever entertained it, of
exclusive happiness to be purchased at the expense of mine. Do not
flatter yourself with the idle prospect of felicity founded upon
Eloisa’s dishonour, or imagine that you could behold my ignominy and
my tears, without horror. Believe me, my dear friend, I know your
heart better than yourself. A passion so tender and so true, cannot
possibly excite an impure wish; but we are so attached, that if we
were on the brink of perdition it would be impossible for us to fall
singly; of my ruin yours is the inevitable consequence.