The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete
Jean-Jacques Rousseau · en
Soon after they opened another iron gate, which divided a large balcony
that overlooked a court yard, and by this avenue entered our sister
catechumens, who, like me, were going to be regenerated, not by baptism
but a solemn abjuration. A viler set of idle, dirty, abandoned harlots,
never disgraced any persuasion; one among them, however, appeared pretty
and interesting; she might be about my own age, perhaps a year or two
older, and had a pair of roguish eyes, which frequently encountered
mine; this was enough to inspire me with the desire of becoming
acquainted with her, but she had been so strongly recommended to the
care of the old governess of this respectable sisterhood, and was so
narrowly watched by the pious missionary, who labored for her conversion
with more zeal than diligence, that during the two months we remained
together in this house (where she had already been three) I found it
absolutely impossible to exchange a word with her. She must have been
extremely stupid, though she had not the appearance of it, for never was
a longer course of instruction; the holy man could never bring her to
a state of mind fit for abjuration; meantime she became weary of her
cloister, declaring that, Christian or not, she would stay there no
longer; and they were obliged to take her at her word, lest she should
grow refractory, and insist on departing as great a sinner as she came.
This hopeful community were assembled in honor of the new-comer; when
our guides made us a short exhortation: I was conjured to be obedient
to the grace that Heaven had bestowed on me; the rest were admonished
to assist me with their prayers, and give me edification by their good
example. Our virgins then retired to another apartment, and I was left
to contemplate, at leisure, that wherein I found myself.
The next morning we were again assembled for instruction: I now began
to reflect, for the first time, on the step I was about to take, and the
circumstances which had led me to it.