She spoke rather more familiarly than servants usually do to their
mistresses, for she knew perfectly well, though she dared not say
so openly, that Miss Llewellyn was not a gentlewoman any more than
herself, but it was, she thought, to her profit to appear to think so.
The Court favourite is generally the object of adulation and sycophancy
until her reign is over. But Ellen Llewellyn had been accustomed to
subservience for so long now that she had almost forgotten that it was
not hers by right. It was only at times that the truth was borne in
upon her that she held the luxuries of life on an uncertain tenure.
Her maid undressed her, and put her blue cashmere dressing-gown about
her shoulders, and would have hovered around her for an indefinite
period, chattering of every bit of news she had heard that day, but
Miss Llewellyn was in no mood to indulge her, and dismissed her at last
rather abruptly. She wanted to be alone to ponder over the surprise she
had had that afternoon--to dream again of Panty-cuckoo Farm; to wonder
how the dear old garden looked under the July sun; if her mother had
aged much during the last five years; whether her father’s figure was
more bent and his steps feebler--above all, she wanted to communicate
her thoughts to someone who would sympathise with them. She felt too
excited to rest, so she took up her pen again and finished the letter
in the writing of which she had been interrupted that afternoon by her
sister’s arrival.
‘I had written thus far, my dearest, when I was interrupted
by the appearance of my little sister Hetty, from Usk, and
her husband, William Owen, when I never even knew that they
were married. Oh, Ilfracombe, I was so surprised! They have
come up to town for their wedding trip expressly to see me,
so I felt compelled to show them some attention. But I was
so nervous! I hurried them out of the house as soon as I
could, and took them to the Adelphi; and there, who should
spy us out but Mr Portland, who would keep on talking to me
of you till I was fairly obliged to run away from him. What
a fool he must be to speak so openly before strangers. I
could have boxed his ears! Oh, I never feel safe or happy
except when I am by your side. How very glad I shall be when
you come home again. Then you will take me up to Abergeldie
with you for the shooting, won’t you? Till then I shall not
stir. How could I enjoy myself at a watering-place all
alone? I have seen nothing of Mr Sterndale yet, and cannot
imagine what he should have to say to me. We never had much
in common; indeed, I regularly dislike him. He always looks
at me so suspiciously as if he thought I was a wretched
harpy, like some women we know of, and cared for nothing but
your money and your title. Instead of which I love you so
dearly that I could almost wish you were a ruined
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