"Or make one. Do you realize what a fascinating position you are in?
Common mortals have only the consolation of speculating about their
future; but you can also amuse yourself with boundless speculations
concerning your past. You are relieved from all responsibility--"
"Oh, no," he interrupted; "that is the worst of it. I have
responsibilities without knowing what they are. The past holds me like
a giant from behind, and I cannot even see my captor."
"Oh, you look at it all too seriously!" Columbine returned. "You can
fashion your past, as we all do our futures, just as you like. I think
you are decidedly to be envied."
"Envied!"
The bitterness of the exclamation brought to her a sudden realization of
the difference of their points of view, and revealed how deep was the
man's humiliation at his helpless position. A quick flush of pity and
sympathy mantled her cheek.
"Forgive me," she exclaimed, impulsively. "I had no right to be so
thoughtless. I beg your pardon."
"There is no occasion. You are right. It is certainly better to laugh
than to cry over the inevitable, especially as things are righting
themselves. But we, or, rather, I, must go into the house. It is growing
cool."
IV.
Life at the old Dysart place went forward in a slow and decorous
fashion, little allied to the bustling manners of the present day. Mr.
Dysart was getting now to be an old man, albeit it is doubtful if in any
abundant sense he can ever have been a young one. In any case he had, by
long burrowing among musty records and genealogical parchments, acquired
a dry and antique appearance, as, to use a somewhat presumptuous yet not
inexact metaphor, certain scholarly worms had taken on a brown hue from
continued dining on the bindings of his venerable folios. He inhabited
a remote and essentially unworldly sphere, from which the existence of
his daughter was wholly separate. He was conscious of her presence in
an unrealizing way; was even aware that just now she had in the house
a guest who had come ashore from a wreck. But that was the affair
of Columbine and old Sarah; he could not of course be expected to
loosen his hold upon the clew which he hoped would lead him to the
exact connection between the Dysarts and the Van Rensselaers of two
generations back, to pay attention to a chance waif from that outer
world with which he had never considered it worth his while to concern
himself.
As far as Mr. Tom was concerned, Mr. Dysart might as well not have
existed. They did once meet in the passage before the study door when
the invalid in his first days of walking was one rainy morning wandering
restlessly about the halls; but the owner of the house hurried furtively
past, as if he were the interloper and the other lord of the manor; and
even when the convalescent was well enough to join the family at table,
Mr. Dysart was very seldom there, so that the meals were for the most
part taken _tête-à-tête_ by Columbine and her patient.
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