"This minute of silence was poignant and tragic. 'Oh! my friend!'
implored John-Giotto Farfadetti, 'you who have given me everything,
you whose soul is so marvelously twin with mine, you must give me
something of yourself that I have not yet had, and from the lack of
which I am dying.' 'Is it, then, my life that you ask?' said the
painter; 'it is yours; you can take it.' 'No, it is not your life;
it is more than your life; it is your wife!' 'Botticellina!' cried
the poet. 'Yes, Botticellina; Botticellinetta; flesh of your flesh,
the soul of your soul, the dream of your dream, the magic sleep of
your sorrows!' 'Botticellina! Alas! Alas! It was to be. You have
drowned yourself in her, she has drowned herself in you, as in a
bottomless lake, beneath the light of the moon. Alas! Alas! It was
to be.' Two tears, phosphorescent in the penumbra, rolled from the
eyes of the painter. The poet answered: 'Listen to me, oh! my friend!
I love Botticellina, and Botticellina loves me, and we shall both
die of loving one another, and of not daring to tell one another,
and of not daring to unite. She and I are two fragments, long ago
separated, of one and the same living being, which for perhaps two
thousand years have been seeking and calling one another, and which
meet at last to-day. Oh! my dear Pinggleton, unknown life has these
strange, terrible, and delicious fatalities. Was there ever a more
splendid poem than that which we are living to-night?' But the
painter kept on repeating, in a voice more and more sorrowful, this
cry: 'Botticellina! Botticellina!' He rose from the triple row of
cushions upon which he was lying, and walked back and forth in the
studio, feverishly. After some minutes of anxious agitation, he said:
'Botticellina was Mine. Henceforth must she be Thine?' 'She shall be
Ours!' replied the poet, imperiously; 'for God has chosen you to be the
point of suture for this severed soul which is She and which is I! If
not, Botticellina possesses the magic pearl that dissipates dreams, I
the dagger that delivers from corporeal chains. If you refuse, we shall
love each other in death.' And he added, in a deep tone that resounded
through the studio like a voice from the abyss: 'Perhaps it would be
better so.' 'No,' cried the painter, 'you shall live. Botticellina
shall be Thine, as she has been Mine. I will tear my flesh to shreds,
I will tear my heart from my breast, I will break my head against the
wall, but my friend shall be happy. I can suffer. Suffering, too, is
voluptuousness, in another form!' 'And a voluptuousness more powerful,
more bitter, more fierce than any other!' exclaimed John-Giotto
Farfadetti, ecstatically; 'I envy your fate, do you know? As for me,
I really believe that I shall die either of the joy of my love or of
the sorrow of my friend. The hour has come. Adieu!' He rose, like an
archangel. At that moment the drapery moved, opening and closing again
on an illuminating apparition. It was Botticellina, draped in a flowing
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