A Country Idyl, and Other StoriesBolton, Sarah Knowles
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A Country Idyl, and Other Stories
Bolton, Sarah Knowles
United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
“I never saw a life so blighted as hers. Her whole heart lay beside his
in the grave. She lost all interest in life. She grew quiet and sad and
more ethereal. She never mentioned his name, but we knew she longed
to live with him, even though she must pass through the valley of the
shadow.
“Against all my struggling I found my old desire to claim her coming
back into my soul. I showed her all the delicate yet unobtrusive
kindness possible. Her very sorrow made her unspeakably dear.
“After Alfred had been in heaven a year, and knowing that she loved no
one else, I told her again the old burden of my heart. She seemed moved
to pity as she laid her hand on mine, just as she did once before, and
said in tones I shall never forget, ‘Burton, I am Alfred’s!’
“I lived over again the old days of torture, and again conquered self
to minister to her happiness. I should have died if I could not have
loved her, and I was almost happy that she did not deny me this. I
gathered beautiful and rare things for her, and in all ways made her
life less sad, if possible. I must have her to care for and love and
serve, and again I laid my affection at her feet. With the same sad
smile she had borne for three years, she said, looking down at the
mourning robes she had worn for him, ‘Burton, I am Alfred’s still; but
if I can make your life any happier I will be your wife!’
“Those words staggered me. I had not dared hope for this, though I
prayed for it. Joy seemed to take away my senses; and seeing me so
beside myself the old look came back once or twice to her face. I
was as one who, shipwrecked in mid-ocean, after clinging for days
to a floating plank, at last picked up by a stray ship, is helpless
through joy and gratitude. I was more dead than alive with my wealth of
happiness. Mary and I were made one. Marsh, how I live over again those
beautiful days. I used to look at your pretty wife beside you as we
journeyed, and think of my precious Mary.
“My cup of joy was full to the brim. She accepted my homage, and was
grateful. I spared no pains to make her life complete. To have her in
my home, to have the blessed influence of her presence evening after
evening, was the crowning joy of a man who had loved for years in
silence and unreturned affection.
“I was so entranced with my joy that another summer had come round
again before I began to realize that she was fully mine, and then the
next winter flew so rapidly, and a little son came into the household.
We were both very grateful—I all the more because I thought it might
fill Mary’s heart something as the old love had done.
“I watched her cheeks grow brighter as she fondled the boy, whom I
named Alfred for her sake. They were so beautiful in my home, mother
and child. I worked with redoubled energy, and well nigh forgot that
there was any heaven beyond, my joy was so complete below.
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