A Cry in the WildernessWaller, Mary E. (Mary Ella)
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A Cry in the Wilderness
Waller, Mary E. (Mary Ella)
New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Québec (Province) -- Fiction
"He don't care much, I guess, seeing the use he 's going to put the
money to. He 's hired a farm for a term of years, up in the Province
of Quebec, somewhere near the St. Lawrence, with some good buildings on
it; and when he knows of somebody that needs just such a home to pick
up in he is going to send 'em up there. And the conscience money is
going to help out. This is the place where you 're to help the
Scotchwoman, as I understand it. Now that's all I can tell you, except
the wages is twenty-five dollars a month besides room and keep. I
s'pose you 'll go for that?"
"Go! I can't wait to get away; I 'd like to go to-morrow, but I must
stay two or three weeks longer in the library. But, I don't
understand--how am I to accept the place without notification? And you
don't know even the name of the Scotch-woman?"
"I 'll tend to that. My girl writes all the letters for me, and the
letters to this place go in the care of the 'Seigniory of Lamoral',
whatever that may mean. They get there all right. You come round here
within a week, and I 'm pretty sure that the directions will be here
with the passage money."
I felt my face flush from my chin to the roots of my hair; and I knew,
moreover, that Delia Beaseley was reading that sign with keen
accustomed eyes; she knew there was sore need for just that help.
III
Do you who are reading these life-lines know what it is to be alone in
a world none too mindful of anyone, even if he be somebody? Never to
experience after the day's work the rest and joy of home-coming to
one's own?
Do you know what it is to acknowledge no tie of blood that binds one
life to another and makes for a common interest in joy or sorrow? To
ask yourself: Do I belong here? To wonder, perhaps, why, in fact, you
are here? To feel your isolation in a crowded thoroughfare, your
remoteness in the midst of an alien family life? To feel, in truth, a
stranger on this earth?
If you have known this, if you have experienced this, or, even if, at
times, you have been only dimly conscious of this for another, then you
will understand these my life-lines, and it may be they will interpret
something of yourself to yourself.
Delia Beaseley walked with me as far as the Bowery. There I insisted
on her leaving me. I assured her I was used to the streets of New York
in the evening. However, she waited with me for the car.
When I said good night to the woman, who twenty-six years ago saved
another woman, "one who had missed her footing",--those words seem to
ring constantly in my ears,--in order that I, Marcia Farrell, that
stranger's child, might become the living fact I am, I began to realize
that during the last hour I had been acting a part, and acting it well;
that, without sacrificing the truth at any stage of the evening's
developments, I had been able to obtain all this information, which
pointed to a crisis in my life, yet had given but little return in
kind. I felt justified in withholding it.
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