London (England) -- History -- 18th century -- Fiction
The day passed slowly for Anne after Dick had left. Her mind was
troubled by vague half-formulated doubts. Had Dick spoken truly, or had
he lied to save her pain? Surely, surely she could never mistake
Sebastian’s signature, the same she had gazed at so often, and kissed,
aye, and wept over also. She revolved these questions in her mind all
day and found no satisfactory answers to them; when she lay down at
night, one insistent suggestion whispered on in her ear, ‘Why did Dick
look like that? Was he lying? Did ever man look so mazed and scared when
he spoke the truth?’ Then Anne’s tired eyes closed and she entered the
beautiful dream-world. Now the dream-world holds sensations of
indescribable vividness not attainable on the earth-world; here
experiences come within the scope of words, there we experience the
inexpressible.
In a dream, then, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep had fallen
upon her, Anne dreamed and thought she awoke in Paradise. For Sebastian
came to her (out of nowhere, after the fashion of dreams), and their
souls seemed fused together in a warm silence. Not a word was spoken
between them; yet the miserable past was blotted out for ever; a great
light shone everywhere—a glow, a heat of forgiveness, a passion of
fulfilment at last; and the beautiful thrilling silence of it all! They
seemed alone in hollow space, out of reach of this world’s hubbub. What
need of explanations when all was understood? Her thoughts rested on
that splendid wordless vacancy. ‘Sure I be in heaven at last!’ said poor
Anne. ‘A fine heaven too, that quiet as it is! The old one as I used to
hear on was all noise o’ trumpets an’ hosannas—here’s heaven indeed,
with this grand quiet as is to go on for ever.’
Anne woke suddenly then—the appalling conviction of a dream was upon
her: she might have spoken face to face with her dear lover, so vividly
present he had seemed, such a sudden assurance of his faithfulness had
come to her. She sat up in bed and called out aloud in the quiet room—
‘Lord! be it a dream? Sebastian dear, what’s this I’m feelin’? Have Dick
Sundon fooled me out an’ out a-tellin’ lies of you all this long time?
Help me, am I losing my judgment?’
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