Frona yielded, in instant recognition, and waiting, snuggled more
closely to him.
"This man, St. Vincent--how is it between you?"
"I . . . I do not know. How do you mean?"
"Remember always, Frona, that you have free choice, yours is the last
word. Still, I would like to understand. I could . . . perhaps . . .
I might be able to suggest. But nothing more. Still, a suggestion . . ."
There was something inexpressibly sacred about it, yet she found
herself tongue-tied. Instead of the one definite thing to say, a
muddle of ideas fluttered in her brain. After all, could he
understand? Was there not a difference which prevented him from
comprehending the motives which, for her, were impelling? For all her
harking back to the primitive and stout defence of its sanity and
truth, did his native philosophy give him the same code which she drew
from her acquired philosophy? Then she stood aside and regarded
herself and the queries she put, and drew apart from them, for they
breathed of treason.
"There is nothing between us, father," she spoke up resolutely. "Mr.
St. Vincent has said nothing, nothing. We are good friends, we like
each other, we are very good friends. I think that is all."
"But you like each other; you like him. Is it in the way a woman must
like a man before she can honestly share her life with him, lose
herself in him? Do you feel with Ruth, so that when the time comes you
can say, 'Thy people are my people, and thy God my God'?"
"N---o. It may be; but I cannot, dare not face it, say it or not say
it, think it or not think it--now. It is the great affirmation. When
it comes it must come, no one may know how or why, in a great white
flash, like a revelation, hiding nothing, revealing everything in
dazzling, blinding truth. At least I so imagine."
Jacob Welse nodded his head with the slow meditation of one who
understands, yet stops to ponder and weigh again.
"But why have you asked, father? Why has Mr. St. Vincent been raised?
I have been friends with other men."
"But I have not felt about other men as I do of St. Vincent. We may be
truthful, you and I, and forgive the pain we give each other. My
opinion counts for no more than another's. Fallibility is the
commonest of curses. Nor can I explain why I feel as I do--I oppose
much in the way you expect to when your great white flash sears your
eyes. But, in a word, I do not like St. Vincent."
"A very common judgment of him among the men," Frona interposed, driven
irresistibly to the defensive.
"Such consensus of opinion only makes my position stronger," he
returned, but not disputatively. "Yet I must remember that I look upon
him as men look. His popularity with women must proceed from the fact
that women look differently than men, just as women do differ
physically and spiritually from men. It is deep, too deep for me to
explain. I but follow my nature and try to be just."
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