A Daughter of the VineAtherton, Gertrude Franklin Horn
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A Daughter of the Vine
Atherton, Gertrude Franklin Horn
California -- Fiction
He had taken the plunge, and he had no regrets. He recalled his doubts,
his certainty that the Randolph skeleton was not the figment of a
girl's morbid imagination, his analysis of a temperament which he was
only beginning to understand, and wherein lay gloomy foreshadowings, the
fact that her first appeal had been to his animalism and that the appeal
had been direct and powerful. Until the morning of the elk-hunt, he had
not admitted that he loved her; but in a flash he had realised her
tragic and desolate position, little as he guessed the cause, and
coincidently his greater love for her had taken form so definitely that
he had not hesitated a moment to ask her to marry him. Later, he had
persuaded himself that he was well out of it; but between that time and
this he had allowed himself hardly a moment for meditation.
To-night he had not a regret. The certainty that she loved him put his
last scruple to flight, and changed his attitude to her irrevocably. He
had never loved before, nor had she. She seemed indivisibly and
eternally a part of him, and he recalled the sense of ownership he had
experienced the night he had met her, when the evil alone in her claimed
him. To-night the sense was stronger still, and he no longer believed
that there was a spark of evil in her; the moment he became a lover, he
became an idealist. He exaggerated every better quality into a
perfection; and all other women seemed marionnettes beside the one who
could make him shiver with hopes and fears, affect his appetite, and
control his dreams, who made him wild to surrender his liberty before he
was thirty, and accept a woman of the people as a mother-in-law.
The full knowledge suddenly poured into his brain that he was in love,
he,--Dudley Thorpe, who had crammed his life so full of other interests
that he had rarely thought of love, believing serenely that it would
arrive when he was forty, and ready for it. He lay along the sands and
surrendered himself to the experience, the most marvellous and delicious
he had ever known. Once he caught himself up and laughed, then felt that
he had committed a sacrilege. He knew that as he felt then, as he might
continue to feel during his engagement, was an isolated experience in a
man's life. He felt like clutching at even the tremours and fears that
assailed him, and cutting them deep in his brain, that he might have
their memory sharp and vivid when he was long married and serenely
content. He was happier in those moments, lying alone on the dry warm
sand under the crowding stars which had outlived so many passions, than
when he had held her in his arms. He felt that something had escaped him
when they had been together, some thought had strayed; and he determined
to concentrate his faculties more fully and to become a master in love.
He did nothing by halves, and he would be completely happy.
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