A dead man's diary : $b written after his deceaseKernahan, Coulson
Philosophy
A dead man's diary : $b written after his decease
Kernahan, Coulson
Christian fiction; Future life -- Fiction; Heaven -- Fiction; Hell -- Fiction
I will tell you why I have introduced this topic into my diary. When
I was in hell, I saw one there whom, save for his averted looks and
pitiable endeavours to escape my observation, I should probably have
passed unnoticed. He was one of those at whom the verse I have quoted
is directed. His pitfall in life had been nothing more vicious than
vanity. He was a coward who was so blind in his cowardice that he
feared God less than he feared Mrs. Grundy, and who, in order to
secure the approval of man, had not scrupled to do that which he knew
was hateful to his Maker. His life had been a living lie. Love of
approbation was so strong in him that he was never happy except in
perpetually posing and in endeavouring to pass himself off for that
which he knew he was not. And with what result? That he had spent his
days in preparing for himself his punishment. The one and only aim of
his existence had been to win the approval of others, and, lo! one
morning he awoke in Hades to find himself the despised of the despised
and the laughing stock of the very Devil. He had so pandered to his
love of approbation that it had grown at last into a disease, and I saw
few more pitiable sights in my wanderings than that of this wretched
creature, slinking shamefacedly through hell, and wincing, as from a
blow, at the glance of every passer.
Of all vices none is so vindictive to its wretched victim as vanity.
It is continually craving for the wherewithal to gratify its insatiate
appetite, whilst growing but the hungrier for a meal. The very
clamorousness of its demands not seldom defeats its own purpose, for
sooner or later it is sure to be discovered, and none of us honour
the man whom we suspect of "jumping" to gain our good opinion. Of the
power which vanity may acquire over a human soul I read lately an awful
instance. We are told that the last emotion visible on the face of
Pranzini, the French murderer, as he stood waiting to be despatched
into eternity, was a simper of gratified vanity (and what share vanity
had in bringing him to that scaffold only He who reads all hearts
can tell) at being the prominent object of interest to so large and
distinguished an assembly. And that as he was about to step with blood
upon his soul into the presence of the Great Avenger!
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