A dead man's diary : $b written after his deceaseKernahan, Coulson
Philosophy
A dead man's diary : $b written after his decease
Kernahan, Coulson
Christian fiction; Future life -- Fiction; Heaven -- Fiction; Hell -- Fiction
"You are surprised at finding me here in hell, because you have always
believed me to be one who thought much and felt deeply on religious
subjects. But you forget that to have religious feeling, and to act
upon religious principle, are in many ways distinct. There are men who,
though they are naturally incapable of lofty thought, would scorn to
do anything immoral or mean; and, on the other hand, there are men who
feel intensely on all religious subjects, who pray fervently and often,
sing hymns with eyes streaming with tears of heartfelt earnestness,
and yet their actions are not seldom unworthy, and their lives will
not bear too close an inquiry. 'There is no self-delusion more fatal,'
as Mr. Lowell has said, 'than that which makes the conscience dreamy
with the anodyne of lofty sentiment, while the life is grovelling and
sensual.' It is a delusion which bids a man close his eyes lest he see
where he is going; it comes to him with its harlot-beauties daintily
draped in the robes of an angel of light, and sings hymns before the
very gates of hell. It is because I am one who so deluded, or who
tried so to delude himself, that you and I meet here to-day. We set
out together with the broad path and the narrow path before us. You,
by one fatal and irrevocable step, swerved to the broad path from
the narrow, and that single step plunged you headlong and hopeless
into this abyss. And I, well, I appeared to myself and to others to
be walking in the narrow way; and yet, by the making of continual
divergences, so trifling as to seem of but little or no account, I
find myself eventually in the same awful abyss that you are in, and
on a level fully as loathsome as your own. Though I have committed no
such crime as you have committed, I was, in the petty details of my
daily life, habitually untrue; and so the time came at last, in which,
with every desire to serve God faithfully and to follow the dictates
of conscience, I found that the power to make my will subservient to
my wishes had slipped unnoticed from me. Habit has the strength of a
giant, for good as well as for evil, and the will to do right on every
occasion is as much a matter of training as is mere physical strength.
The man who is habitually untrue in small things, cannot, even though
he wish it, do right in great ones, any more than the man of untrained
muscle can, by a mere exercise of volition, lift weights which would
try the practised athlete. The only way in which to become Christlike
is not to endeavour to feel so, not to seek to arouse sentiment or
emotion (as drunkards fly for strength to stimulants), but to make
Christliness the persistent and unconditional _habit_ of our lives. We
must learn day by day to resist the first rising of a desire to do,
or to say, or to think, that which we know diverges by the hundredth
part of an inch from the path which conscience would have us to walk;
and we must so school ourselves that we can, by sheer force of will,
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