A dead man's diary : $b written after his deceaseKernahan, Coulson
Philosophy
A dead man's diary : $b written after his decease
Kernahan, Coulson
Christian fiction; Future life -- Fiction; Heaven -- Fiction; Hell -- Fiction
It seemed to me then that I fell into a sleep, deep, and sweet, and
restful, in which I dreamt that I was a child lying upon the bosom of
God. I remember that, as I lay, I stirred in my slumber, and, raising
myself, chanced in opening my eyes to look below, but that with a
cry of terror I turned and clung like a frighted babe to my Father's
breast,--for beneath me and afar, there yet yawned the mouth of hell,
from which, ever and anon, rolled dense clouds of hot and hissing
smoke, that seemed to twist and writhe like souls in agony, and which
in colour were like unto the colour of blood.
And I thought that, seeing my fear, my Father stooped to me as a mother
stoops to comfort her frightened babe, and that as He stooped I beheld
His face, and knew it for the face of the Lord Jesus, and that He bade
me be of good cheer, "for underneath thee are the everlasting arms."
As He so spake I awoke, and saw that she whose hand had plucked me out
of the abyss of horror into which I had fallen, yet knelt beside me in
tender ministry and prayer, and that she was singing a hymn softly to
herself whereof I heard only a verse:--
"I know not where His islands lift
Their fronded palms in air;
I only know I cannot drift
Beyond His love and care."
She ceased, and I arose, but ere I had time to question her, I
was conscious of a sudden stillness, like the hush which follows
benediction after prayer. "Don't you hear it?" she whispered eagerly,
as with upraised hand enjoining silence, she turned her head as if to
catch some far-off murmur, "Don't you hear it? They are praying for you
at home: kneel down!" And as her words died away, there seemed to float
towards me the sound of air-borne music that stayed for one moment
to fold me round with the sweet consolations of loving companionship
and of peace, and in the next stole swiftly and softly away as if
journeying onward and upward to the throne of God.
And with a great cry of anguish I fell to my knees and prayed: "O Lord
Christ! I am foul and selfish and sinful! I do not know that I love
Thee! I do not know that I have repented of my sins even! I only know
that I cannot do the things I would do, and that I can never undo the
evil I have done. But I come to Thee, Lord Jesus, I come to Thee as
Thou biddest me. Send me not away, O Saviour of sinners. Amen."
As I ended, it seemed that my companion turned to leave me, and I fell
to sobbing and sorrowing, until at last for very anguish I could sob
no more. But soon I heard again her returning footsteps, and, looking
up, I saw One who stood beside her, thorn-crowned, and clad in robes of
white. _His features were the features of a man, but His face was the
face of God!_
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