American fiction -- 19th century; Artists -- Fiction
"I shall not let you destroy my faith in my old-fashioned simples,"
she said in tones that were lighter than her meaning. "You must not
be sure that because you are so much my senior, all my complaints
have been merely children's troubles. Appearances are often
misleading, you know."
"Not in your case, I think, Miss Burton. I have lost faith in
almost everything, and most of all in myself; but this unexpected
little talk has touched me deeper than you can know, and I cannot
help having faith in you."
"I will believe it," she said with a smile, "if you will give me
a little of your society before you go back to the city."
He looked at her with sudden suspicion. "Do you mean what you
say?"
"I do."
"Why do you wish my society?"
She hesitated.
His face darkened still more, for he remembered what he was, and
how little this young and lovely girl had in common with him.
"Answer me truly," he insisted; "why should you wish my society?
I've not a particle of vanity. I know what I am, and you undoubtedly
know also. If you wish to advise me and preach at me, let me
tell you plainly but courteously that your efforts, however, well
intentioned, would be in vain, and not altogether welcome. I can
conceive of no other reason why you should wish for my society."
Her face became very pale, but she looked him full in his eyes as
she replied:
"I do not wish to preach or advise at all. Can you not understand
that one may ease one's own pain by trying to relieve the suffering
of another? Now you see how selfish I am."
His face softened instantly, and he said:
"Miss Burton, that is too divine a philosophy for me to grasp at
once. As the world goes now, I think you are founding a school
of your own. You will find me an eager listener, if not an apt
scholar, whenever you will honor me with your company." And smiling
his thanks he rose and left the table.
This conversation had been carried on in tones too low and quiet
to be heard by others in the crowded and noisy dining-room. Van
Berg, who sat opposite, had taken pains not to follow it and to
appear oblivious, and yet he could not refrain from observing its
general drift and scope in Mr. Mayhew's manner; and his eyes glowed
with admiration for her winning tact and kindness. The glance he
bent upon her was perhaps more ardent and approving than he was
aware, for she, looking up from the abstraction which the recent
conversation had occasioned, seemed strangely affected by it, for
she trembled and her face blanched with a sudden pallor, while her
eyes were riveted to his face.
"You are not well, Miss Burton," said Stanton hastily, but in a
low tone. "Let me get you some wine."
She started perceptibly, and then a sudden crimson suffused her
face as she became conscious that other eyes were upon her.
In almost a second she recovered herself fully, and replied, with
a smile:
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