American fiction -- 19th century; Artists -- Fiction
"No, I think you, Mr. Stanton. A cup of tea is a panacea for all
a woman's troubles, and you see I have it here. I did not feel
well for a moment, but am better now."
The eyes of Stanton and Ida met. Both had seen this little
episode, and each drew from it conclusions that were anything but
inspiriting. But Van Berg was thoroughly puzzled. While as he felt
hen he would have gladly drawn encouragement from it, and perhaps
did so to some extent, he still felt there was something peculiar
in her manner, of which he seemed the occasion, but was not the
adequate cause.
Miss Burton soon after sought her room, and for a few moments paced
it in deep disquiet, and her whole form seemed to become tense and
rigid. In low tones she communed with herself:
"Is my will so weak? Shall I continue betraying myself at any
unexpected moment? Shall I show to strangers something that I
would hide from all eyes save those of God? Let me realize it at
once, and so maintain self-control henceforth. This is an illusion--a
mere trick of my overwrought mind; and yet it seemed so like---"
A passion of grief interrupted further words. Such bitter,
uncontrollable sorrow in one so young was terrible. She writhed
and struggled with this anguish for a time as helplessly as if she
were in the grasp of a giant.
At last she grew calm. There were no tears in her eyes. She
was beyond such simple and natural expression of sorrow. She had
ready tears for the troubles of others, but now her eyes were dry
and feverish.
"O God," she gasped, "teach me patience! Keep me submissive. Let
me still say, 'Thy will be done.' And yet the time is drawing near
when--oh, hush! hush! Let me not think of it---
"There, there, be still," she said more quietly with her hand upon
her side. "Hundreds of other hearts besides your own are aching.
Forget yourself in relieving them."
She bathed her face, put some brighter flowers in her hair, and
went down among the other guests, seemingly the very embodiment
of sunshine. All eyes save those of Ida Mayhew welcomed her; the
children gathered round her; Stanton and Van Berg were both eager
for her society in the dance, or better still, for a promenade; but
she saw Mr. Mayhew looking wistfully at her, and she went straight
to him.
With unerring tact she found out the subjects that were interesting
to him, and reviving his faith in his own intelligence, led his
mind through sunny, breezy ranges of thought that made the time he
spent with her like an escape from the narrow walls and stifling
air and gloom of a prison.
Chapter XXIV. A Hateful, Wretched Life.
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